[newbride2012]

Well here we go...I have been overweight my entire life. Graduated high school weighing in about 280 got married to the first guy that i thought would have me and put on pounds from there. Eventually it got where I wasn't sure how much i weighed because the scale wouldn't go any higher than 320. After years of struggling with an unhappy marriage and 2 children later I knew I had to make a change. I went from diet to diet including Richard Simmons, Susan Powder, weight watchers, and i lost pounds here and there but it wasn't until my husband left that i really woke up...here the one person in the world i thought would have me even though i wasn't happy was gone, what would i do now? I started taking the diet pill xenadrine even though I knew it wasn't healthy what really did i have to lose but weight. Suprisingly it worked, it gave lots of energy and every pound I lost was motivation to lose more...UNTIL they changed the diet pills and took the ephedrine out and there i was stuck at 265. For years I managed to maintain that weight and started socializing more and met another man and of course i loved him despite his countless attempts to cheat on me. After being with this man for 3 years he passed away from Tick Fever...once again my world was in turmoil this time I became very depressed and just didn't eat and I lost down to 235. Well once everything started getting back to normal the lbs started slowly climbing again and I found myself back at 260. A friend told me about some diet pills that she was taking and she had lost 35lbs. so I went to the doctor and got on these pills and quickly the weight just started disappearing...within 6 months I was down to 192, I hadn't weighed that since 6th grade but felt better about myself and was happier than ever. Then I met the most special person in the world (my husband) I never knew what it was to be treated so well, i felt like I was finally getting what i deserved what all the skinny girls i had always known had always gotten. We became engaged in Feb. 2011 and then tragedy hit again both our parents (his father, my mother) had been battling with cancer. My husbands father died on May 13th and my mother died on May 14th...they were buried on the same day. After that I had alot of changes in my life because I had lived with my mother. I moved in with my fiance' and took time off from work because the stress was too much to handle and a wedding to plan on top of that...so here we are at the present and my weight has crept back up to 254 last time i weighed have been terrified to get back on the scales because I am disgusted with myself. I have a few medical issues also and it has been really hard. I have the best husband in the world and I'm worried that the way i feel about myself and my weight is already putting pressure on our marriage. I need and want to make a change and hope that the wonderful people on this website can give me the motivation i need!

[Julesbond007]

Hi newbride, I must say that I needed a tissue reading your story, You have been through alot. I am sorry for all you have gone through and feel for you. It takes alot of courage to open up to total strangers like you have and I commend you for that. I had weight issues before myself, and recently lost 73lbs, I am about 23 away from my goal weight. And still doing great and feeling awesome. I am more than happy to share my journey with you as well. Especially since you have shared you's and maybe we can motivate one another? I hope your day is going well, Julie

[phillywilly757]

I completely understand what you're saying. I lost over 100lbs just a few years ago and managed to keep it off until I found out I was pregnant with TWINS back in 2010. They were born in November '10, then I lost my mother 1/1/11. All the stress of the new babies, then the loss of my mother, whom I was very close to threw me back into depression and horrible eating habits. Before I knew it I was up from 170 (a very healthy size 10) all the way back to 273-278 (size 24) (no scale could ever give me accurate readings...one said one thing, others said something else) My husband is the type of man that didn't care how I look, he loves me for me but I hated myself, my body, everything about me was gross...or I thought so anyway. I went to the doctor and they did blood work, I was almost diabetic, my blood pressure was high, I had high cholesterol, my liver enzymes were screwey, not to mention my heart was working overtime to pump all the extra blood around my body. Girl, I got on the stick! I couldn't let my life fade away. I have a family to take care of and to be here for. I started losing weight again in February this year and so far, I've lost around 38 lbs. I'm into a (still tight haha) size 16-18. I feel better, I look better...I'm setting a goal to lose back down to 170. Some days are better than others, I go one day at a time. I can do anything for 24 hours. and once that 24 hours is up, I say again I can do anything for 24 hours. I'm brand new here too and would love some new friends! Please feel free to add me!

Good luck to you and everyone else here. Many blessings! <3 Phyllis