[kyrie99]

So I've finally done it. I looked in the mirror and accepted that I have a problem. My usual sexy diva self has disappeared. Well, to be honest, it didn't happen in the mirror; it happened in the bedroom when my sweet precious DH was trying to to tell me how beautiful I was and I JUST DIDN'T FEEL IT!! I thought, "This has got to STOP!" (The bad feelings...not the other thing ;-) I owe it to him, I owe it to myself to feel wonderful through and through.

So much to my chagrin I decided that I needed to go on a DIET. Blech, I hate that word! This was my first major goal--to accept that I wanted to make a change. It was so so hard! I went from 140 to 201 with my first pregnancy 13 years ago and basically never lost a pound afterward. The funny thing was that I felt SO MUCH BETTER about myself @ 200 than I ever had @ 140. When I was 140 I was always dieting (which pretty much meant giving up beer and french fries) to lose 10 pounds over and over again. I hated my body. I would stand in front of the mirror and say..."Well, at least I do have a great nose." But at 200 I felt great. My life was on track, I was active, I had a beautiful baby...

Fast forward to now. I have another baby which explains those next 20 pounds. And who knows where the extra 15 came from? I'm still very active and I have a fabulous diet (probably fabulously too much!) So it's time for a change. I'm also not fond of the word journey so I think I'll call this a TRIP.

I'm most afraid of getting back to a healthy weight without having a healthy body image. I need lots of help with loving myself every step along the way. I'm so happy to be here!

Looking forward to lots of reciprocal support.

-jennifer

[Kitcherella]

You'll find lots of information and support here!

[NEMom]

Welcome to the forum!

[Apple Blossom]

Wow kyrie99, I could have written that post. I have a similar situation. The part about your wonderful husband especially. It's really hard mentally to hear compliments from the one you love the most when you actually feel like crap. I wish it was motivation enough, but I'm on a bit of a down cycle right now, just keeping my head above water. Hope to find some inspiration and will power soon!

[msrebridge]

You took the step in the right direction to get started and that's usually the hardest part. None of it's easy, but it's worth it in the long run!

[kyrie99]

Thank you everybody. It really helps to know that so many of us share similar stories and have jumped similar hurdles. I really love knowing that you're all out there!

-jennifer

[gypsy137]

Welcome, Im also new here. Ive worked on my weight for awhile but my motivation is severly down. Also need weight loss buddies. Good luck to everyone!
~~~G

[Bobbles]

Hi from Las Vegas, Jennifer! welcome to the boards, looking forward to seeing more of you around here!