I am reading your posts and realizing I am NOT alone! I live on a VERY popular beach, and being at the beach, I deal with the fact that I am a 222lb woman living on a beach where the average woman is a size 6 ( i know this because I need to travel to find stores that carry my size bathing suit) I have had 9 pregnancies over 16 years and it has taken me to the lowest self esteem ever! Recently I had a hysterectomy and lost about 14 lbs.although I believe that was from the surgery and not wanting to eat for weeks after! Being a 5'4 222lb woman has not been easy for me , but I am hoping that I can keep losing and not put that weight back on..Holidays are approaching and that is a dangerous time for me to be alone with my appetite...Just wanted to say hi and let you know who I am and what I am about!