here i go venting again but i'm so frustrated right now i could eat my weight in chocolate. i was asked to work monday for extra hours because i am not f/t yet and having a hard time making ends meet. female boss says come in monday 9-5. get there male boss at 11am go home no work for you. so i walked the 2+ miles home so my daughter wouldn't have to load the babies to come get me. off tues. today 3-9 get there sent home 6pm. not before another work says holy crap i am over 40 hrs this week already. he started 5 weeks before me. i was so mad i thought my head would explode. i made it to the car just in time for my emotional melt down. then i polished of a sundea at dq. now i feel sick to my stomach. mad at them mad at me. being so new in town i really had no one to call. not like aa where you have a sponcer to turn to in times of weekness. so i guess i'll take my digusting self to bed where i no doubt will rehash this in my head for hours befor i sleep causing me to be less than my cheerful self tomm.

well i decided to weigh myself on sat morn. so officially i now weigh 228lbs. 12 lbs down 32-42 to go. the first ten or so i know is water weight so i even though i dont understand that i'll be glad about it.i think working contributed also. the place i work has two floors 22 steps between them. so i've done alot of stairs w/th/fri. today i'm doing a dbl, sometimes i'm to tired to eat. that not good either. now that nice weather has arrived we will be busy here. they say everyone that works here for a summer had lost weight because of the stairs. the joke is the work out is free.hope everyone else is having a successful week as well.

Welcome and good luck!

It's a beautiful day here in michigan and i'm seriously considering a walk. my daughter has a bike and i'm thinking of having it inspected and start taking it to work. I remember laughing when i'd see two large butt cheeks hovering over the bike seat. Now its my butt wafting over for the world to see. I treated myself to a long soak in a lavender bubble bath. I am trying to use other things as treats instead of food. Anyone have any suggestion.

today i just want to eat everything in sight. I'm so bored on my days off. New to the area i have no where to go. I'd get in my car and drive but w/gas over $4.00 a gallon who can afford to do that. I've called several of my friends (?)from back home but was totally rejected. seems like everyone has a life but me. without eating i feel i don't have much to do. it's a catch 22. I eat when im sad,lonely or bored to make me feel better then i'm sad, and unhappy because i ate and am overweight cause me to be bored and lonely. this cycle has to stop. i feel like a seesaw up down up down. does anyone else feel stuck in thisd vicious cycle and does anyone have a way to break it. I'll be most happy to try any suggestions

Welcome and I hope things look up for you. Don't give up.

hi again. todays situation for discussion is this first why do they make clothes for larger women have giant pattern or flowers on them. I'm a big girl with big tata's and do not need big daisies or sunflowers plastered on the chest area of the shirt i where.
secondly today at work we had a meeting to discuss uniformity amongs the staff being that the tourism season is about to begin.we are to wear black long sleeves button down collared shirts. no problem went to mens dept bought a couple xxl. the problem is they want them tucked in. i am not comfortable with my shirt tuck in it add more stuffing to the already over stuff bottom half.then the muffin top happens and theres no hiding the pooch in front. I would prefer a shorter type shirt that breaks up the bigger area and looks better. I also like aprons and vest to help hide the bulges and rolls. you would think they would want their employees to look their best and be confident with their appearence instead of forcing them to conform to the appearence of the 20yr old that look ok in their uniform. just another way to beat down the moral of someone who is already in the grips of ho hum

doesn't anyone else think of food all day or is it just me. I get up and think whats for breakfast.while eating breakfast i'm wondering about lunch and dinner. then i need my mid morning mid afternoon and midnight snacks. it seems that i think of food all the time. to make matters worse you cant turn on the tv radio or pick up a magazine that in one form or another talks about food. it no wonder we are all in the boat we re in. even driving down the street you see billboards and places to eat every couple of miles. I find it hard to focus on anything non ediable through out the day. somehow even without being aware of it food creeps back into my thoughts. went for a walk looked up at the beautiful sky and thought the clouds look like fluffy marshmellows. smelt a bbq in the distance. and food ,litter along the path. short of being locked in a all white room this is an uphill battle that needs extra man power and support to win.

Welcome :hug:

getting ready for mother's day weekend. I have let my daughter and son in law know that candy is not exceptable. I have to work a double (9am-11:30pm) so i think my eating will be under controll. i have heard that eveyone who works at the place i work from mothers day to labor day has lost an average of 30 lbs. I hope this is true. I look forward to being part of that statistic. It's very busy and we use the stairs quite often plus there's lifting and carrying. i'm hoping it will jumpstart my journey to losing at least 50 to 60 lbs. i'll be posting for sure.