It's too late now, but I'm starting anyway
I'm not sure when I became a fat chick, but I'm pretty sure it was some time after people started telling me I was one. I'm one of those terribly stubborn, but easily defeated individuals. I declared myself fat, decided there was nothing I could do about it and stubbornly stuck with that position. Every time I considered losing weight, I decided that it would have been possible X number of lbs ago, but now it was too much to lose. Even now, I'm thinking that 36 lbs ago it wouldn't have been so bad. If I keep up this thought process, I will continue to put on weight at the rate of 10 lbs a year which I've been maintaining (give or take) for the past 12 years.
Three years ago, I made my most impressive attempt to lose weight to date. I joined a gym, hired myself a personal trainer and a nutritionist, and I spent an hour and a half at the gym each day, lifting weights and cooling down afterwards with 30-45 minutes on the elliptical. I felt amazing, but after 4 months and a grand total weight loss of 10 lbs, I couldn't motivate myself to return to the gym after an illness kept me in bed for a week. After all, what was 10 lbs in the grand scheme of things? I regained those 10 lbs plus, and I feel awful.
So, having hit a new high on the scale today (after spending about 6 months refusing to get on it), I'm ready to go again. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of having a built-in excuse not to try.
There is one positive to starting now. I now know that I have allergy-induced asthma. Apparently, I've had it since I was a kid, which explains why I used to get winded so easily even before I was overweight. So, I'm now prepared to commit to exercising with my trusty inhaler in my pocket.
I'm looking forward to support, particularly from individuals who are willing to work hard.
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Dhani 
New here myself. 
