well i am not exactly a "new" member, but i was away for awhile due to a pregnancy and other life related stuff...but i need to come back here and get my life on track..i am now after pregnancy in a sz 24, 273 lbs...and completely ashamed of myself.
i feel like i owe it to myself and my husband and new child to be the best and healthiest person i can be...but everytime i eat i feel guilty (i promise i dont let this keep me from eating..starvation is not the answer i know)...
i just want to feel ok in my skin again..my husband tells me how beautiful i am and how much he loves me everyday-i am so blessed to have that in my life..and i want to be everything i can for him because he deserves that! i just feel like i let him down by looking the way i do...i know thats crazy but i look at pictures of me in high school (132 lbs) and i am disgusted to think i gained 141 lbs in five yrs..i just hope i can get the support i need from the forum and the motivation and willpower i need from MYSELF to keep it up..i hope to be at least 160-165 by july 2nd of next yr for my cousin's 15th birthday party.
i hope you all have a great day-thank you for reading! lets all hold hands and jump in this pool together..if you'll have me!






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