I am also 35... some days I feel 80... but most days I feel 21 trapped inside an old fat lady's body HA!
I have always been a little more "healthy" than others growing up... but then the instant I got married 15 years ago, I think I gained 100 pounds overnight! I have struggled my entire life. Even when I was at a more normal weight, my mind told me I was obese and disgusting.
In my 35 years, I can't say that I have ever been happy with my body after puberty.
I have goals in numbers, but normalcy ... is my ultimate goal. I just want to feel normal, and be happy inside my own skin.
I wish all the best for you. I think this site is an awesome tool for all of us to have someone to lean on that has been there... the support just isn't the same coming from a skinny person.