Hey There!
I think one of the reasons this place is so darn special is that we are right there with you! We are all an ex "something" and are trying to find our way to good health and balance.
One thing I've learned about motivation- it's fleeting. Sometimes, I have NO motivation and I just have to pull out my running shoes... then I tie them... then I get my ipod... then I get in the car. 6 years later and I still need my "baby steps"

. And I too have fallen off the wagon. Sometimes it's a minor glitch, other times it's more major. But I seem to find my way back, and so will you!
I hope you stick around! I've really enjoyed your posts so far