I am 19 years old.
I am tired of crying myself to sleep some nights because I hate the way I look and feel. I am tired of refusing to take care of myself or dressing up because I think it's futile. I am tired of not being capable of keeping up with my little brother when we go out and play. I am tired of seeing my mom look at me with sadness in her eyes. I am tired of hearing from everyone that they looked NOTHING like me when they were my age and looking at me with contempt. I am tired of wearing baggy clothes in an attempt to hide my unflattering figure. I am tired of the pain I feel in so may parts of my body. I feel like there is nothing I can do to change.
I want to be able to run around without running out of breath. I want to look as good as the girls that make me jealous. I want my mom to feel proud when she looks at me. I want people to say that I look good and look at me with respect. I want to be able to wear the stylish clothes that I'm always picking out for other people. I want to feel as limber and comfortable as I was as a young child. I REFUSE to let my body control me.
I am new to the whole weight loss game as my wake up call came a little late. I really want to feel and look good, but I don't think I can do it without support. I need all the advice and help I can get to achieve my goal weight. I don't care if it takes 2 years, but I WILL GET THERE.
I stumbled by this website on pure chance. Reading all the post brought tears to my eyes and I thought, "Why can't I feel this type of motivation?"
I joined this community in the hopes of receiving the same sort of support and motivation as I have seen on this forum. I hope to be able to take control of myself.





