[nolonger]

I am 19 years old.

I am tired of crying myself to sleep some nights because I hate the way I look and feel. I am tired of refusing to take care of myself or dressing up because I think it's futile. I am tired of not being capable of keeping up with my little brother when we go out and play. I am tired of seeing my mom look at me with sadness in her eyes. I am tired of hearing from everyone that they looked NOTHING like me when they were my age and looking at me with contempt. I am tired of wearing baggy clothes in an attempt to hide my unflattering figure. I am tired of the pain I feel in so may parts of my body. I feel like there is nothing I can do to change.

I want to be able to run around without running out of breath. I want to look as good as the girls that make me jealous. I want my mom to feel proud when she looks at me. I want people to say that I look good and look at me with respect. I want to be able to wear the stylish clothes that I'm always picking out for other people. I want to feel as limber and comfortable as I was as a young child. I REFUSE to let my body control me.

I am new to the whole weight loss game as my wake up call came a little late. I really want to feel and look good, but I don't think I can do it without support. I need all the advice and help I can get to achieve my goal weight. I don't care if it takes 2 years, but I WILL GET THERE.

I stumbled by this website on pure chance. Reading all the post brought tears to my eyes and I thought, "Why can't I feel this type of motivation?"
I joined this community in the hopes of receiving the same sort of support and motivation as I have seen on this forum. I hope to be able to take control of myself.

[Onederchic]

Hi and welcome to 3FC.

Good luck with your goals.

Hugs
Michelle

[HLS]

Hi and welcome! You have jumped a big hurdle already - deciding to do something about your weight! I have previously lost 105 pounds (and since regained it - long story) so here I am again. There is a lot of support here and so many success stories! Congrats on making the decision to lose weight!!!

[islandchick1]

I can feel your pain in your writing.
You have found the right place for support dear
YOU CAN DO THIS
Hugs and support on your weight loss journey

[Magnolia Rayne]

Hello and welcome to 3FC. Good luck to you in your journey and in reaching all your goals.

*warm hugs and sweet whispers of support to you*

[nolonger]

Thank you so much everyone!

[Careabu]

Dear nolonger, Your avatar states that someday you'll be a flower. Well, you are already a flower; you are just beginning to form buds and will bloom, truly you will! I can hear your deep sadness in your intro but louder than that, I can hear your determination and that is awesome. One thing that helps me a lot is go to to the Before/After photos here in the forum and read the stories of people just like us who are starting out (or starting over) and no doubt you will find somebody there who is about the same age, or started at the same weight, etc....and then when you see their new photo, it really can really spark something inside nad if you are like me, you'll think "Well, if they can do it, maybe I can too!!" Someone else said it first but it's true.....you've already come a long way just by joining this group and sharing your heart. That's a huge step. Lean up close to the monitor...I'm sending a hug of encouragement.

Care