New :-D Need support!
Hi, I'm new here. I've checked out the website a few times over the past few months and decided to join.
A little about myself: I'm 24, 4'10" and weight 205 lbs. All my life I have been the chubby kid, but since my mother passed away in February 2008, I have gained around 15-20 pounds.
I have serious issues with myself, and have considered talking to a shrink but maybe being a member here and having support from people who struggle like me will help.
In my head, I honestly think that I will not live to 50 years old. My mother was 46 when she died of colon cancer, and her mother was 40 when she died from complications after heart surgery. I know that it is insane for me to think this, but honestly, it's how I feel. But I also know that if I change my life, I might not feel the same way.
My goal is to just be healthy. I want to live to see my kids graduate from college, get married, and have kids (all things which my mother and grandmother did not do). It is hard not having a mother around, especially now that I am engaged and planning a wedding. The wedding is this October, and I would love to lose 10 or so pounds by then. My overall goal is to be around 130, which is still high for my height, but I am also pretty stout and have a lot of muscle.
Of the family that I have near me, everyone is skinny. My dad's wife is tiny, and is even trying to gain weight! It's really hard to be the only fat person in a family of skinny people.
I have a gym membership at an all womens gym, but I haven't been in a while. I honestly think that I would look like an idiot in there, since I am so out of shape. I have tried a few diets before, but I think what is best for me is just eating healthier and exercising, no counting points or cutting out food groups.
Any tips, help, support, anything that you guys can give me would be the greatest. Thank you so much <3
Last edited by Short and Stout; 08-13-2010 at 11:21 PM.
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