Wow, I am very sorry to hear about all you have had to deal with lately. It's no wonder that you have had difficulty with weight during that time. Stressful events are the worst for those of us with weight problems.
I know that it was not great to see yourself in the mirror in your swimsuit, but if that's what it took to help you realize you wanted to lose again, then maybe it was a good thing.
The very fact that you are back on here shows that you are ready to get back into life after all that has happened to you. Congrats to you for taking this step!
We will all be right here for you anytime you need support. You are definitely not alone. Good luck and keep posting on the awesome progress I know that you will make!