Hi all...so glad I found a forum I can be honest on! Need help and support!!
My background:
after my daughter was born in 1997, i was depressed, in a bad marriage and homesick after moving away from my hometown. Got up to 225 lbs...hated myself and my life. I decided to try 1 more time...and started taking a suuplement called Anorex...full of ephedrine. Worked GREAT!! had no hinger, lots of energy...and over the course of a year , lost 85 lbs!! Looked great, felt awesome...left the marriage, got a job, and moved back home.
Well as life does, a series of events..job changes, relationship changes, etc etc and I have gianed back...to date, 70 pounds!!!
I am horrified!! I swore I wouldnt let this happen...but I have.
No longer take the Anorex for multiple reasons...cant afford it, and the original formula no longer availbale due to FDA ban.
I have no motivation to exercise...and I seem to want to eat all the time. I know how to lose weight...I just dont seem to have to gumption to do it. I know, tho that it is harming my quality of life. I feel it affecting everything...
i just need peoples suggestions, advice, encouragement, and PUSH!!
I hope I have come to the right place.
I want to find myself again!!!!!
Hello, thistime, and welcome. I know what you mean about finding the gumption to start your weight loss journey; I have felt that many times myself, including recently. I am certainly not an expert, but what worked for me this time was just to start and try to build some momentum. So, one good day built on to another and another and another...Starting was the hardest part, really. Once you get going and start to see some progress, it really helps.
I wish you the best on your weight loss journey. You will love these boards. I come here often and find a lot of shared experiences and motivation.
Welcome! I know exactly how you feel, I've started and stopped on the weightloss roller coaster countless times What helps me is to look at the worst pictures I have of myself because then it makes me think about the fact that I am the ONLY person standing in my way of taking back the reins of my life! I also try to think about cute clothes I have goals to fit into whenever I'm offered extra food or dessert. Plus, when the extra food/dessert comes up when I think about it, I'm never actually hungry for it, just full!
We're all here to support each other!!! I know you can do it, especially if you've done it before!!!
Glad to hear from you thistime! I know how you feel. I dropped 45 for my wedding. Since then have gaine 80. I got the news that my doctor was going to diagnosis me with Diabetes if I didn't change. So, now I have to.
I agree with JrMohr. One day at a time. Set your goals small and your acheivements of them will be big! I know that you can do it. I am sending support and positive energy your way!
Let me know if there is anything that I can do to help!!!!!
so far day one...not too bad on the food part, but havent reached my crave time yet either-the dreaded 3:00
The plan is to exercise when the craving hits...
push the craving off until dinner...and then eat healthy again.
I am noticing that even if the rest of the forum doesnt read my post updates, it is making me more conscious!!
Didnt try very hard today until about 3 pm...now I need to reel it in in the food dept for the rest of the night...try to calculate what I all ate and forgot to write down!!
Feeling really fat and yucky today...maybe Monday blahs!!
I want a potato so damn bad!!! But I will fight it!!...have plans for a tuna and biloed egg salad for dinner...one of my favs...and filling, so hopefully I can get back on track.
Hope all others are having a successful day!!!!
Last edited by thistime140; 08-31-2009 at 05:42 PM.
Damn. How is this possible? i knew I shouldnt step on the scale before Friday...but I couldnt help myself...and it says I gained 2 pounds?? whhhaaattt?
I am actually working out and being conscious of what I put in my mouth and this is my reward....
great :/
I guess this is more like a journal now...oh well.
today I did fine...until about 9:00.
I had a taco salad for dinner..not the best, but could've been worse...
but after 9 all **** broke loose!! I had the rest of my kids quisedilla (sp?) and 4 ears of sweetcorn!!! FOUR!! my Mom brought them up b/c they were on sale...oh for christs sake woman...dont you know I have no control????
anyway...ate them all...at 10 o'clock. real smart!
I have 4 days to get my s__t back on track. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow and sticking to the list!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My daughter goes to her Dads this weekend, so I should be able to use this weekend to properly detox from the carbs...they are killing me!! my empty flat tummy feeling is gone...I'm back to stuffed again...and I havent really exercised in 2 days (lawn mowing not included).
I hate this...I have 23 days until back on stage with the band, and 45 until family pictures!!!!
WHY is it so hard to stick to something? WHY do i have such little self control?????
I really hate myself right now.
New here...help me find myself again!!!
What helps me is to look at the worst pictures I have of myself because then it makes me think about the fact that I am the ONLY person standing in my way of taking back the reins of my life! I also try to think about cute clothes I have goals to fit into whenever I'm offered extra food or dessert. Plus, when the extra food/dessert comes up when I think about it, I'm never actually hungry for it, just full!
