Welcome Moni!
I'm pretty new too and I found this forum is great to find out information, read about other people's journies, and share your own.
Don't think about the weight you put back on, just think about the weight you are going to loose now and keep off! Just say bye bye to every pound and tell it it's never coming back. That's what I do (it might sound nerdy but it makes me feel good :P )
Good luck with your weightloss journey!