xena,
i SOOOOOOOOO empathize about the yo-yo ing, eating for boredom, and being your heaviest.
I am now trying to take wisdom from my numerous starts and stops.
I know all the stuff is TRUE about "slow and steady" and "making a new and permanent lifestyle".
I doubt ANYONE could post that it works to diet and exercise to goal, and then quit.
I have always struggled with "getting" that.
Anyway,
may the force be with you