I was the same exact when I started all this. I decided to look at it as lifestyle changes instead of dieting, and tried to just let go counting calories so much, and more paying attention to what foods worked with my body, how I felt while I was eating, (the big one right here-) STOPPING when I felt full (isnt that the worst one..Ive always been trained to clear my plate lol)
As for motivation, I have to always have a goal. I want to shed this much by this date (but not beat myself up), I want to get into this size (realistically) soon, I want to be able to zip these jeans up.
And I save a couple pairs of my beginning size pants. When I REALLY need the motivation, I yank those suckers out, look at how big they are on me, and remember how tight they were on me and how small they looked back then and how TINY the stuff Im wearing now looked back then!
I really stick to my guns that weight loss is so much more psychological than anything else. I think that the physical part of it is what it is, but if your mind isnt there, its pointless. Im fighting the same battle myself, but hang in there, we can do this!! Dont kick yourself for falling off thewagon or you wont wanna get back on!
If you need support or a buddy, feel free to pm me your email or just talk through here. I have finals coming up so Im pretty busy but I will get to checking event.!