I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I have now reached my highest weight ever!!

At my last doctor's visit he mentioned the words I never wanted to hear.....bariatric surgery!! I don't want to have to go that route. I know people who have had it done and have been very successful and a few that have had several complications. It scares me!! And I know that if I can't get my "head in the game" even the surgery won't be successful.
We weight has kept me from living!!! I have a 5 year old son who wants to do things but my weight stops me. It is so not fair to him! I am missing out on so much. He is only young once and won't always want to do things with his mommy! Not only that, my weight has ruined several relationships. I am currently single and have been for over 4 years. The thought of even trying to meet people...

I just can't take the rejection any more. People say it is what is on the inside but in reality that isn't always true. Looks do matter and at almost 300 lbs....not a real attractive impression.
For me, surgery will have to be the absolute last resort. My employer has chosen 30 employees to participate in a weight management pilot program. For the first 13 weeks they will pay for lab work, meetings and 1/2 of the food. After that, it will be 20% off. I was one of over 150 who applied and and was chosen!! We have had our orientation meeting and was able to taste the some of the food. It taste really good!!! Tastes even better than lean quisine and healthy choice! I have my lab work done tomorrow and then the program begins on 6/16. It is medically supervised for the first 13 weeks even if you choose the Healthy Solutions program (part meals with added fruits and veggies). I am starting with the Decision-Free diet to jump start my weight loss and then after the 13 wks transition into the Healthy solutions diet. They have weekly classes and the instructor calls once a week in between meetings....lots of support and accountability. I am praying that this will be the one that I can be successful with.