New/DIeting is scary
 

Hi,
I'm here because I am trying to lose weight without relapsing into old eating disordered patterns. When I started dieting again, which was about 3 weeks ago now? I weight 280. I have gained 65 pounds due to a misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder and all the meds they put me on, and then I had brain surgery this last fall due to a congenital condition they just found out about, and I have an associated spinal cord disease that I am working on figuring out through the pain clinic here in town. And I am only 31!

So, anyway, I have lost 9 pounds. Which I never thought I could because weight loss has been super hard with this med weight. But as I have been losing weight, I have found that really negative, disordered eating disorder thoughts cropping in, like maybe I shouldn't eat at all, or I should skip meals, or I should only eat this food all day, etc etc. Eating disorders aren't cured, they just go in remission, and dieting is a huge trigger. My goal is to be 240 pounds, because realistically, I don't feel safe in a body under 200 pounds, and 240 is maintainable. Which is just what I need. Something maintanable, healthier than where I am at now, and a body that allows me to shop at Old Navy for pants!! :)

So that's why I am here. Because dieting is scary for me in a really different way because I face relapse into bulimiarexia and binge eating, but I think I am old enough and honest enough to try to work on these issues and lose weight. I hope this is the right place for me!

Don't thinking about DIETING . . . Just think about HEALTHY EATING. Youy can do it.

Hi Rosieredpose, welcome! I agree with Meowee. You'll have to stop thinking in terms of dieting, since that's a trigger, and just think in terms of healthy eating--protein, whole grains, complex carbs, essential fatty acids, etc.--these are the foods that will stabilize your blood sugar levels and keep you full, but by eating them over less healthy choices, you'll lose weight. There's lots of information here about healthy eating, so read lots and post lots! Good luck!

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