[x0me880x]

Hey everyone I'm Sadie. I don't even know how I found this site, I was just searching around about weight loss and happened to stumble upon it. Hopefully I can find the support and continued motivation I need on here, from a bunch of strangers, which to me is kind of weird but it's better then no support at all (I only have one person of support outside of internet world right now). I feel like I have been on a diet my entire life (i'm 20), and have been overweight pretty much since I can remember. I have been on and off diets that have not worked ever, but it wasnt until recently, about 2 months ago, that I really found the inspiration. I don't know where it came from and I don't know how it started, just one day I felt that I needed to change my life around. I have been going strong since, and have proudly lost 30lb so far (the 274 at the side was my all time high). It's all really strange to me since I have always been the least motivated person ever. I would start somthing and it would be done within a week or two. I am so determinded this time and know this will be the time my life, body and health is changed. I was told by my doctor a few months ago that I have pre high blood sugar. I already have high blood pressure that runs in the family, I can't allow myself to have diabetes. My school years (in school not at home) where a living ****. I was constantly day in and day out harassed and bullied, not only by students but by teachers as well, because of my weight. I went through a time of depression when I was in middle school and since then, though things are alot better now, have always been shy and sort of kept to myself. I always feel like people are judging me on nothing but how fat I am, and I'm sick of it. I have this mind set that I shouldnt be doing this all for someone else, for people to like me and not judge me by weight alone. But if thats how it's got to be, I guess I will be more happy if I don't have the constant though that I'm being judged. I want to be healthy, I want to feel sexy and look nice, I want all the confidence, and a damn nice wardrobe because I could totally use it. So I guess in a way it is for myself. Whoa I need to stop myself, I never thought this first post, again to a bunch of strangers haha would get so personal and so long. But I can ramble haha. If no one cares thats ok, I guess I just needed to vent a little for myself.

[Janis427]

Welcome, I think it is good to vent some. I also have hardly any support at home. But to tell you the truth, thats ok. I have eaten out of spite when DH says "do you really want to eat that?" I will eat something bad just because I didnt like his comment.
I wish you the best on your journey to be as heathly you can be.

[LindzyLou]

One of my big reasons for wanting to lose weight is how I want to look in clothes, as shallow as that may be! I love clothes!

[Thighs Be Gone]

I appreciate you posting something so honest. I can identify with many of the things you have said. It sounds like you are doing this for the right reasons. Good for you. Doing it for YOU is the best reason of all and it is so very worth it.

[Lovely]

Sadie!

You've come to the right place to find others in similar situations. (As well as finding the right place to vent.)

Many of us have been where you are, and where you were. (Ahh, bullies.. such fond memories. )

We're all just here now, no matter how much weight we're looking to lose, trying to be healthier.

You may want to check out the 20-somethings, the 100lb Club, or even an area under Diet Central depending on what kind of program you're following.

Stick around, let us know how you're doing, and post as often as you want.

Best of success!!!

[luvja]