Hey you!
You certainly do carry your 220 pounds well, if I do say so myself.
As I mentioned before in one of your other threads, it's all about mind over matter. You will feel so much more confident on stage. You will get to do awesome photo shoots. You will shamelessly promote yourself in the music industry and you will be aware that you have the (societally accepted) looks to back up your talent. I think you are gorgeous right now, but I also know that YOUR opinion of yourself matters most.
I have good news, too:
While us binge eaters will ALWAYS have the tendencies, I know I personally have gotten much better about it. I just got done with a fitness photo shoot that I busted my arse trying to get into figure competitor/fitness model shape for. I succeeded and was very happy with the results. I told myself I would eat everything I wanted the day after the shoot since I was super restrained. ...BUT...despite no longer having the pressure of a professional photo shoot on my hands, I STILL didn't care to binge eat that much. I felt it was really a pointless thing to do.
You will get used to living without lots of junk food and you will stop finding it as appealing as you once did. Also, I have found it important to stay away from the foods you can't stop eating.
You know you can write me any time and I would be more than happy to be a sort of weight loss mentor to you. Our stories are VERY similar and I think we really do have a lot in common.
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