Forgiveness - this is what I had to do with my weight and with my emotional state from loosing my Mom when I was 24 and then later in life coming to terms with not being able to have children. I have lost 45 pounds since I started this journey. I have discovered that in order to keep weight off, I must have a purpose and I have realized that I want to help others lose weight - spiritually, physically, mentally and emotionally. I started dieting right after Christmas of this year...weighed in at Curves on January 30th at 208...weighed in at the FMH Wellness Center on February 20th at 205. I am on the Outlook Diet Program. I used to say "I am so stressed" as an excuse to eat but now I am recognizing real stress and am able to move through it without intaking M&M's or Marie Calendars Fettucine which is really amazing to me. I still have negative feelings but like they say at FMH this is not a destiny, this is a journey. I truly am experiencing joy and victory!!