Hello All,
I am new to the community and I wanted to introduce myself. My name is Karen, I'm from NYC, and I have been overweight my entire life. In 2004, I reached 264 lbs (I'm 5' 4") and I decided it was time for me to get serious about my weight problem. I changed my eating habits, began to exercise and over the course of about 9 months, I lost around 65lbs. I then traveled to Florence, Italy for four months and I dropped another 20 lbs while there (completely effortlessly -- everything there is so fresh and delicious). When I got back to the US, I kept up the dieting and exercise routine and eventually got down to around 175lbs before hitting a plateau that discouraged me greatly.
I've gradually gained back around 15 - 20 lbs and I'm now at 190 due to an EXTREMELY sedentary job. I'm getting married in October (to a man I met while in Italy). The fact that I regained some weight frightens me and I'd like to lose some for the wedding. Last year I dropped to around 185lbs, but then, of course, hit another plateau. All these plateaus are so discouraging and terrible and I feel like my body is somehow defective. Everytime I hit one, I have a tendency to feel so discouraged that I get lax in my diet and exercise.
Over the last month and a half, after reading the wonderful "The Truth About Beauty" By Kat James, I began a no-sugar, low carb, higher fat diet/protein diet and I have definitely slimmed down (my clothes are MUCH looser than they were 6 weeks ago), though the numbers on the scale have stayed the same. I have been working on my grad school finals like a maniac and haven't been working out as much as I should, but my semester ends Tuesday and I intend to dive into exercise immediately after that.
I'm just feeling so... impatient and annoyed I just KNOW that I'm going to hit a plateau (I feel like I might already be on one, btw) and I will be 190lbs for my wedding in October. I'm frustrated, because I DID make lasting changes to my lifestyle and I worked so hard, but the smallest I ever got was 175 lbs. PLUS... even at my "thinnest" my body never looked "better" than it did when I was 260lbs... I was just a smaller version of what I had been (i.e. no nice, lean body was developing). Even now, changing my eating habits, eliminating sugar and getting physically smaller hasn't budged the numbers on the scale.
Do any of you have any advice, especially those of you who have experienced many plateaus and have gotten through them -- what did you do to keep yourselves motivated to push yourself further, etc.? I just have this feeling that I will NEVER be lean and thin... EVER... no matter what my efforts and I'm resentful that I could work so hard and change so much and STILL BE FAT!!!!
Anyway, I've been reading around and you guys have such inspirational stories! I'm happy to meet all of you.
- Karen



