Hi Tamie, and
Sounds like you hit what we call a "plateau" - you do the best you can do, and you're STILL not losing. It's CRAZY and definitely challenges the willpower of even the most dedicated among us. But I am living proof - if you KEEP WORKING, eventually you'll break through it.
Since you've had success before, you know pretty much what you need to do. So now is the time to DECIDE to do it and go. Keep posting here, keep asking for help when you need it, and get settled. You can do this!
I can't wait to get to know you better!