unwilling, I know what you mean about being afraid to lose weight. How will I look, how will people react, treat me, what if I'm not happy, what if I have excess skin, what if my bra size shrinks to nil... All those insecurities are in the back of my mind. Sometimes I think I've sabotaged myself in the past because I've been so afraid of being slim. I was down to a happy 175 a few years ago. That lasted... a few months, and then I started to climb again. This time, no sabotage! I'm doing this for ME, and I'm not letting anyone, me included, get in my way!
As for being the funny one, we all need someone like that in our lives!

See you around!
Red Dress