Heya everyone!
So, as you might have guessed already, I'm new here.
And just in case you didn't guess, I too would like to lose weight. No! You don't say? Hee hee, just kidding.
Anyway, guess I'll give you all a little introduction to me...
I'm a 19 year old University student, and I'm living in a basement suite in Victoria BC. I love university ( most of the time) and spend a lot of time avoiding my homework (right now)...
How I got "fat":
Alright, this is a tricky story, but I'm going to tell it. Ever since I can remember I have "felt fat", even as a little squirt of a kid I remember believing I was fat. I don't remember anyone calling me fat, or saying I was ugly, or anything like that, I just always thought I was... It was a totally self-induced idea of myself.
In high school I found myself weighing in at 150lbs in grade nine. I had no idea I had weighed that much, and it sent me into weight loss mode. I got down to 137lbs... But it wasn't done in the healthiest way for some periods. And I became pretty much obsessed with reaching 125lbs. I remember trying to eat as little as possible.
Eventually I stopped dieting, but began to get serious about biking. I had always been active (speed skaitng, running) but with biking I was doing crazy amounts of exercise (b/c I loved it so much) and I got down to 132lbs. I still thought I was fat.
In grade 12 I had a terrible time emotionally, a very tough year with friends. I began to feed myself with food. I was an emotional wreck and I ballooned up to 150lbs.
Sigh.
Let's just say I tried to diet. I tried Weight watchers and lost nearly 10lbs. But I wasn't happy. Throughout my freshman year of university I fed myself emotionally, binge eating. It was terrible.
Then this past fall, I tried to actually purge... And I realized that something was wrong.
So now I'm here, I plan to lose weight by changing my relationship with food and the people in my life. I want to be happier, and healthier, and catch myself before I head down the path past disordered eating to an eating disorder. I am getting psychiactric help, and I am doing what I can to be a mindful eater.
I don't actually weigh myself anymore (not since mid-Jan) I just take measurements (I find it less stressful). My goals are simple: lose a few inches, and start healthy eating habits, and get back in the great physical shape I used to be in. So far, I've lost some inches and I've been getting fitter every day.
Okay, so now you know more than you need to about me... tell me, what's your story? What are your goals, what have you acheived so far?
And I'm always up for some e-mail/chat buddies.
Just another Fat Cat... (with a long story)
