I can't believe how many aches & pains I used to have and accept as just part of my daily life. I'm not sure it even ever occurred to me that my weight was contributing to it all.
Today, I can say that nothing hurts, and that is amazing to me. Not my hip, not my knees, not my ribs, my ovarian cyst has resolved, and my menstrual cramps are much more tolerable.
While riding a bike (for the first time in decades) the other night, I fell. Admittedly, I was barely moving -- and it was super embarrassing -- but I was not hurt. I have a bruised knee, scraped up ankle, and a bruised hand. (But, 3 days later -- nothing hurts!) Had this happened when I was heavier, I am sure I would have sprained, if not broken, something.
I am planning a backpacking trip and I have confidence that I can make the hike with a pack on that weighs as much as I have lost! I've been wanting to go for a couple of years now but knew that it would be a struggle hiking up a mountain with my 200+ body plus a pack - Now I know I can do it!!!
now that I'm thinner none of my clothes fit me because they're too big!!! yay-off next week and will be hitting some thrift shops - long overdue - will be weighing myself after work today for my weekly weigh in
Now that I'm thinner . . . I can shop in the vintage clothing stores I was always so afraid to go into. I feared that they would take one look at the very-overweight me and think they were saving me time by saying, "Sorry, we have nothing in here that would fit you." And then, of course, I would fall to the ground, dead from embarrassment. As irrational as that probably was, that is how I felt and how I lived until very recently.
Yesterday, I actually entered the vintage clothing store and with contrived confidence. My confidence became more real as I paged through the racks and, rather than wondering what I could fit into, looked at each piece of clothing with an eye toward whether I liked it or not. I had choices!
Everything I tried on fit. (I almost fell to the floor, dead from astonishment!) I left with a cute little summer sleeveless shift dress -- in bright orange. Never before would I have considered bright orange, let alone sleeveless. Once I got outside the store, I just wanted to cry. A dream has come true, a goal has been realized. I almost can't believe it.
Congratulations! ... It is sad to think I let all those years pass being afraid and embarrassed to shop. ...
Isn't this the truth? And, know what? Yesterday, I was in one of my favorite little boutiques . . . where I would always stick only to the jewelry & housewares sections, not brave enough to look at the clothes. Well, yesterday I went on the clothing side and know what I saw?? Two ladies in there trying on everything under the sun, with the help of the shop owner. These ladies were more than ample size. One was very close to where I was 100 lbs ago! I never even considered that there would be anything in there for me at that size . . . but there was. I just had never looked.
We are doing way more than losing weight -- we are gaining confidence and the ability to accept more of what life has to offer. So much of it, I think, was always there for the taking . . . we just didn't dare look for it before. That's sad.
Now that I'm thinner . . . I can shop in the vintage clothing stores I was always so afraid to go into. I feared that they would take one look at the very-overweight me and think they were saving me time by saying, "Sorry, we have nothing in here that would fit you." And then, of course, I would fall to the ground, dead from embarrassment. As irrational as that probably was, that is how I felt and how I lived until very recently.
Yesterday, I actually entered the vintage clothing store and with contrived confidence. My confidence became more real as I paged through the racks and, rather than wondering what I could fit into, looked at each piece of clothing with an eye toward whether I liked it or not. I had choices!
Everything I tried on fit. (I almost fell to the floor, dead from astonishment!) I left with a cute little summer sleeveless shift dress -- in bright orange. Never before would I have considered bright orange, let alone sleeveless. Once I got outside the store, I just wanted to cry. A dream has come true, a goal has been realized. I almost can't believe it.
