Cornflake, I think you do have the courage. You have already decided which program to use, IP, which is a really good program. You have also decided that you cannot fail.
Failure can only take place if you give up, which you haven't done.
For some of us, myself included, doing the program doesn't go smoothly all the time. Not everyone loses all the weight at a steady rate in perfect succession.
However, even with starts and stops and feelings of frustration, the weight does come off. I am almost almost down 40 pounds, and without IP I never have been able to do it before.
Here is what I suggest. Start over the weekend, after your Friday night. Try to have several good IP days in a row, and be sure to drink all your water. Easier on the weekend if you don't have a lot of obligations outside the house. By the way, if you drink 1/2 ounce per pound of body weight it's quite helpful. Make sure you take the supplements. Let yourself sleep if you feel sleepy. Let your body's wisdom start the healing process.
Also take some time and start thinking about how much better you will feel about yourself when that 30 pounds is gone. What you will look like in your clothes. And how much better you will feel physically.
Come back often to the IP boards and let the community here encourage you. You are not the only one with this challenge, and having a challenge doesn't mean you can't succeed. Take it day by day, hour by hour if you have to.
But inside you also have to decide that this is for real. Take that feeling of not being able to fail, and turn it into a DECISION that you are going to succeed.
Good luck and let us know how you are doing. Most success in life takes place after many starts and stops, and this will be like that for you!
