I was always very healthy and active for my entire life, until I moved far away from my family and friends to NYC. Once I got here, my life fell apart. Mentally and emotionally lost in a new city, broke up w/ my live-in boyfriend, lost my job, horrible new roommate, etc. Very challenging 2 years in my life. I started eating horrible foods, take out every day for lunch AND dinner, and I totally stopped exercising. One month I even got a notice from ConEd saying that they thought my meter was broken because I had no gas usage for 2 months (I only use gas for cooking) so how pathetic is that???
Over the past 12 months I've managed to change my bad habits and get back in shape and I've been really dedicated to it.
Well I'm moving OUT of NYC in a few months. I'm in a much better place mentally and emotionally, but I'm afraid that by changing my routine I'll stop eating healthy and exercising again. I'm moving back to an area that I'm familiar with and that I love and my long-term boyfriend and I will be moving in together. He is SO great. Supportive in every way and loves me to death. We will probably be getting married in a year or two. So I keep telling myself that since I'm in a "better place" I'll be able to keep up my healthy ways and not let things get out of control again. But I still have this nagging nervousness about it.

I have to tell myself that I KNOW I can do this!! It's so important to me so why would I let myself get unhealthy again??

You won't and shouldn't go back to living a unhealthy life just remember how you felt when you were in that situation and look at your life now and you will know the reason why you can do this. You been down the hard path and now is the time to look for a new path you can follow along with.

Thanks for the kind words. I will keep re-reading them when I'm feeling weak and scared about this change in my life!!