well it's almost 11pm, my time and I am wore out. I really want to go in the kitchen and raid the fridge!

but instead I'm logged on real quick to try to get my mind off of it. If DH was here I'd already I'd be asleep and not thinking about the Oreo cookie barz and other yummy chocolate stuff in the the kitchen....

Okay my baby is moving around, I better go save her before she falls off the couch.

Talk to ya'll tomorrow,

Oh.........to be young again

Kayla - yes I know it is difficult to stay OP while you are not at home. I am going back to WW for extra motivation but I doubt seriously that I am going to actually count points. Guys..........who knows whats really going on in those tiny little brains of theirs, but if you really like him just be patient cause they always say they don't want to get into anything serious. It's just a guy thang ya know.

Well I'm off to do some reading.........

LJ
225/197/150

Ommmmm.....Kayla said a naughty word.

LOL...

Well, Mike and I are still having problems. The real problem is...I am a grudge holder. I can't even begin to let something go. If someone hurts me, I carry it with me until I die. I know it is healthier to forgive and forget, but when I am hurt, I want the world to hurt with me.

Anyway, Saturday night I moved out of our bedroom and into the guest room. This morning, I woke up to find Mike sleeping on the floor next to the bed.

I think ultimately, I will fogive him. He didn't cheat...just lied about something I think is important and was telling some woman that he is friends with, some stuff in an email letter that was hurtful.

I also think that lack of communication is a problem now, it hasn't been in the past, but with us both gone so much....

Anyway, I need to shower, maybe I will wake up then.

Take care crazy ladies...OH WAIT A MINUTE. It's weigh in day. I was 238 last week. Let me run and check that scale. Hold on....

Ugh. 237. Well, I guess that is one more pound down. I complain cause I don't lose faster, but I don't stick to this religiously either. Crap or get off the pot I guess.

Another scorcher in Central Illinois today....

Gosh I LOVE those new smilies!
Tiffany
265/237/160

Good Morning my peeps!

Well I made it through the night without raiding the kitchen .

Okay Tiffany...... that was supposed to be a secret! I guess after having all them thar babies and getting on that thar hill everyone's always talking about going over, I just cain't be holdin in all that stuff...if ya knows what I mean. HA HA Simpson.....DOH! Why I oughta....... Okay seriously.... I wore a long shirt/jacket thing that hangs in my cube. When I got home, my mom says "oh you better spray n wash those". She didn't ask me what happened! Go figure. How's your daughter? Can I just tell you, that I am SO NOT looking forward to the wonderful teen years. Oh yeah..... CoNgRaTs on losing 4 sticks of butter!! I'm sooorrryyyy, I'm adicted to the whole butter thing.....

Kayla ~ 3 words......Boys are stupid! Everything we need to know about them we learned in kindergarten, right? Seriously though, I hope you two get to see each soon and talk.

Huntress: Thanks, I feel so much better today! I feel like shaking "my money maker", hehe.

Today's a new day and so far life is grand. Or at least I have to keep telling myself that. Otherwise.......

Are any of you step parents? I just want to hurt my DH's ex-girlfriend, mother of his child!! She's just plain young and stupid, and I want to kick her, really, really hard. No offense to any "ex"es out there. I'll have to tell the "latest" story later, when I can be calm and rational about the whole thing .

Wait.....okay.....yeah.....life is grand

Well Tiff, you lost a pound and I found it. How's your daughters hair? You know, my 10 year old son just had his hair colored for the first time. Looks good, but 10 YEAR OLD BOY. Still shocks me that boys are into that now.
On a positive note for me, the weather is beautiful! Humidity is gone. Windows open, curtains blowing in the breeze. My favorite kind of day! I'm destined to stay on plan today!
Dyan, no steps or ex's in my immediate family. B-I-L is divorced with kids. Some of the stuff that goes on trips me out.
Oh, tiff...let the grudge go if ya really love this man! DH and I have been together for 16 years (married 12) and it just gets easier for us. I think a big part is "letting stuff go".
Jello, what the #@(! is going on w/the weightloss center? Have you ever talked to anyone else that used this service? I would be so ticked.
Today, I'm going grocery shopping...with my boys. I have a good list made up of organized meals. I should be able to cook better with the humidity gone for a few days. My challenge will be not letting the boys talk me into buying junk.
Off to heard the cattle (get the kids ready to leave the house).

Hi everyone.

Didn't check in yesterday - not at work but instead at a horrid meeting & team building day. It was fine except that the meeting room was about 50 degrees and the group activities were anxiety-ridden enough to make me have diarrhea afterward. I left during our "free play" time to go find a bathroom that would be unlikely to contian coworkers - out in the rest of the mall - and went shopping instead of going back.

By the time I went to my evening class and got home I was a wreck with a headache. So no checking in for me. I did okay considering. Buffet lunch (bad news) and a semi-healthy sandwich on the go for supper. I didn't write down my points but counted mentally and I was in the "over-my-limit-but-not-completely-off-my-diet" range. I'm not sweating it. I just WON'T sweat days like that when circumstances are awful but I make better decisions than I otherwise might have.

Like that time (on Sunday) when I went to Damon's and wanted a burger but got a salad - so what if I was 3 points over for the day it was WAY better than it could have been.

TOM arrived today - whew! I won't be constantly hungry anymore - for a few weeks. So we'll see how the scale goes.

Jello - don't you dare give up. You had a few off days - now you will have some more OP days. C'mon, you know that it's all about getting on the horse and riding again. Having a couple of bad days doesn't mean you've failed. Instead, you just didn't choose to be goal-oriented over the weekend. It's about the effort you make over a YEAR, so jump back on the wagon. Plus, I think you're heading into your emotional week, n'est ce pas?

Tiffany, congrats on the pound! He slept on the floor by your bed like a dog - now that's what I call repentence! H is way to stubborn to EVER do something like that no matter how wrong he was, LOL. Hope things work out with him & with your daughter.

Tiger, sorry you had a crappy weekend, too. You'll get back on track. We do need our structure, don't we? Family reunion, schmamily schmeunion.

Huntress - I'm glad you had such a great trip!! Vegas really is a fun place to walk around and gawk. I don't gamble whatsoever but I've still had fun when I've been there for a few days at a time.

I don't stress about the points too much - but I don't use their journal either... I just keep a running total in the right margin of the daily pages in my planner. It's a good way for me to gauge when it's time to STOP for the day. Otherwise, I really tend to portion with a generous hand. Also, if I look up the points before I eat something, I can usually come up with enough self-control to make compromises or come up with a better plan or at least throw away part of the french fries before I eat the rest so I don't run over for the day. Damage control, I guess, because sometimes I've just got to have what I've got to have. Did you check out the Wendie plan? I think I'm going to try it - we'll see.

Dyan - way to avoid the fridge!! I'm glad you weren't holding your breath on the scale info - I forgot. It's a brand called STARCK. I got it at Target because H thought it looked cool. It wasn't by the other scales, it was by the bathroom stuff on a display of items made by this designer - Starck. I compared to the other scales and it was similar price for what seemed to be similar quality. You don't see the numbers on it until it lights up - it's just a silver box on legs on the floor sort of. (?)

Kayla - I'll be thinking about you - be sure to tell us the outcome of your talk!!

~Cafe, doing well today.

OK, Dyan, now I'm craving oreo cookie bars! Humph! Thanks heaps. No I'm just kidding. But I love those things. I refuse to have them in my house! I admire folks who can have what WW used to call "red-light" foods in the house. Of course, if I didn't buy any of the foods I've been known to binge on, I'd have no food in the house at all! Well, maybe a lettuce leaf and an ice cube?

Tif, sorry about the problems with Mike. It's not good for you to hold onto the bad stuff. Usually, you feel angry and yucky all the time and the other person just couldn't care less or doesn't even remember the argument or whatever. What a waste of time and energy. They're just men. We have to put up with them and that's just all there is to it. Still, I think it's kinda sweet that he slept on the floor in your room that night....

Tiger, are you sure you found the pound that Tiffany lost? I coulda sworn this was it here on my hips! You know, making an organized list of meals before you go to the grocery store is a great idea! I should try that, plan out a menu for the week or at least for a few days. And then STICK TO IT! Ah, there's the rub.

OK, weight loss folks. *grumble* I called Monday and told them my patience and sense of humor had run out and I just wanted my money back. Boy, did the wheels suddenly start to turn then! The head of the program apologized profusely. Then his assitant called and apologized again and told me stories about crossed signals and mistaken assumptions, etc. etc. etc. Today, I finally talked to Suzanne who also just happened to be the person who signed me up and gave me orientation when I joined the club. I like her a lot and think we'll get along good. My first appointment is Thursday evening. She asked if I'd filled out all the paperwork (homework) for the first session and then stopped and said "oh I guess you've probably had it done for a week, right?". But she was also very apologetic about the confusion and delay.

So OK, I'm giving them a chance. And I'm giving me a chance too. And since I don't start till Thursday night, I've got 2 whole days left to EAT EAT EAT!! OK, I'm only kidding.....

I've rambled long enough. Time to get some stuff done I guess. Just reminded the boss that I'm off on Thur and Fri and launched him into panic mode. Man, if I'm really so important to him, why don't I get MORE MONEY here!?!?!?!

Hope everyone's having a good one.

OH MY GOD.

Remember, I told you all about my bike ride from ****? I went one block and had to push it?

My tires were flat. I put air in them, but had no idea how much to put in there and they were still flat. No wonder I almost died.

He aired them up good and bought me a nice cushy jell seat....big enough for my hind quarters...(peace offering) and we went for a bike ride...a LONG one...the breeze was cool and it was so nice out! I can't believe how much fun it was to ride a bike again.

And I can NOT believe that my tires were flat before. I THOUGHT I was just too fat for a bike and that was why my tires were smushing down to the ground. What an idiot.

Well...the job is going ok. Accounting is NOT my strong suit, I want to get back to the secretarial stuff, and not this math stuff. LOL....Icky.

Jo...good for you for getting your health club in line. Now, you can get focused. Make your money work hard for you!

Yeah Cafe...TOM!!!! Now you can have those 3 good weeks!!! I love it after that hungry time has passed.

Tig, my daughters hair is orange. We called the hotline and now it will take 3 different boxes of color to get back to that nice brown that it was in the beginning.

Dyan...what's up pussy cat? How's things? By the way, good for you for keeping out of the fridge. That's a tough one. Oh yeah, I have 2 step daughters and Mike has an ex-wife from ****. I can NOT even begin to tell you how many times I have wanted to pack it up and leave because of her. I feel your pain.

Well, it's past my bedtime. I am off to bed.

Nighty Night.
Tiff
Dyan...You SHAKE that money maker. And take photos.

Hey girls!

well ya know how i said i was going to get back on track today? uhh....no. didnt happen!

I am sooo tired! Its been NUTZ the last few days.....Im working at vacation bible school now and the kids are like....bad..... honestly.....they just dont want to listen...so what am i going to do? for my class...im going to buy them off with candy....at least if they are busy chewing they wont be able to talk.

so i saw greg today....but he was at work and i had to go get some stuff there....i just CONVEINIENTLY showed up on his shift! hehe! but he was SWAMPED and couldnt talk...all he said was he would e-mail me back tonight...he hasnt been home yet and im exhausted so...i guess it will have to wait for tommorrow!!!

Tommorrow i dont think ill be around much! i got VBS from 9-12, lunch with mom at 12, then im going to have a sleep and then im going up to camp to visit tommorrow night!!!!

so i hope everyone is doing good! luv ya all!!!
luv
Kayla

Bikes....DH and I bought really nice bikes a few years ago. We were camping, he was off fishing somewhere, I jumped on one of the bikes, started to ride, and the pedal BROKE. Broke right off. Cracked the steel or whatever it's made of. Talk about feeling like a cow. DH took the pedal to the bike store and they replaced it for free. Said it must have been faulty. Ok. Yeah. Right.
Tiff, is airing up the tires and getting a new seat part of the "peace offering package"?
Girls, I've never had Oreo Cookie Bars. I don't even want to start!
How does the JUNK FOOD get in our houses? I try so hard to buy good healthy things. The kids beg for junk, and I usually give in to a couple items. Then, I try to buy DH a few treat for his lunchbox. So, when I am having a craving...there it is. And ya know, the kids and DH don't need the junk either. Just how do I convince them of this?
I've also been having a hard time with my fruits and veggies lately. Not getting in enough servings. Maybe cause I've let some junk back in...I need to cleanse my system. Yeah, that's it. Hmm. How? Usually if I avoid the junk for a few days, the cravings go away...until PMS. Ramble, ramble.
OK. Off to make beds.

Well, gals, I'm confused. Aunt Flo checked in at the hotel but hasn't been heard from since? But I'm not hungry so that's okay!

Must be a tough couple of days, everyone is laying pretty low.

Tiffany, your bike ride sounds heavenly. My mom and dad are big into recumbent biking and tried to get me involved - but it's a whole new darn skill learning to balance and ride a recumbent. So we'll see - maybe when the weather cools off but before winter I'll try again. I haven't had a bike for years.

Kayla, sounds like you're running around burning cals left & right!

Jo, you'd better start drinking your water today at the very least.

Meanwhile, I don't have much to add.

Yesterday, I typed a really long post, just rambling and such... and when I went to post it I had too many smilies and I lost the post . I was mad. Needless to say, I went home and I just didn't have the energy to re-type it all again.

Okay, gotta tinkle , but I'll be back to post again......

Question: Why eat a pop tart when you might as well just eat a box of pure sugar? Tastes pretty much the same. Results are the same. Sick, queasy feeling. I can feel the cavities starting already. Boy are those things sweet! I don't remember them being so sickly sweet back when I used to eat a box of them for dinner! Well, add that to the list of things I've lost my taste for, I guess.

Do you guys have things that you used to eat that now make you sick just to think about? I remember eating Dunkin Donuts for breakfast (and not just one ) every day. Now I have one and it sits in my stomach like a brick. And whole milk? Yuck! Feels like you have to CHEW it!

I guess it's good but the problem is I still crave some of that stuff. Today, I had one of a coworker's pop tarts. He asked if I wanted it and I practically wrestled him to the floor for it. But now I'm regretting it. Well, maybe lots of water to wash it down, right Cafe?

Dyan, I've done that with the posts and the smilies. Now if I'm typing a really long one, I stop every now and then and copy and paste it into Word. I have it in case it crashes on me.

Tiger, do not even try the Oreo cookie bars! You're better off that way. Speaking of fruits and veggies cleansing your system, I spent a good part of Sunday munching on the leftover fruit salad from Saturday's picnic. Big mistake!! I won't say anything more.

Tiffany, congrats on getting "all pumped up" about bike riding. (OK, yeah, that was pretty bad.) My poor bike hasn't been out of the shed all summer. But your trip sounded so nice. Hm....

Well, I'm off tomorrow and Friday. Going to an annual festival where there's lots of food and music and food and dancing and food and sights to see and food.... But I'm buying bottles of water at every opportunity and doing lots of walking, I promise!

Gotta get some stuff out in the mail before it goes so I'd better sign off. Hope to check in again over the next few days but if not you guys be good and behave! (Well "misbehaving" is still behaving ... sorta. )

Gooooodddd MMoorrnniinngg LLaaddiieess!!!

How are ya'll doing? I'm hanging in there.

Tiff~ sorry, but Hahahaha flat tires.... ya kill me!! I'm sure we could swap "ex" horror stories for days! Last night I was in tears, I am just getting so stressed out about all the money this woman is costing us. For ex: When Adriana got out of school for the summer her mom had no where to send her, so DH and I said we would take her and she could give us $50 a week (for food, activities, etc...) BUT nnnooo she wouldn't do that! Instead she calls us up and says, oh yeah, I signed Adriana up for a 5 week camp for $1000, so your half is $500!!! I was so pissed! Then she calls last week and leaves DH avoicemail on his cell phone, talking about how she can't make her car payment this month and how she over extended herself (yeah, I guess getting a boob job will do that!) , can ya tell I'm mad?! We pay $400 a month in child support for 1 child, that doens't include childcare. At one point we were paying over $700 a month. I think this woman doesn't realize that we have 3 other kids to worry about!!! SO now camp is over at the end of the week and she has no where to send her, plus she wants us to take her the last in week in August, so that she go to Delaware with her boyfriend and show off her new boobs!! Okay.... I just need to calm down.....

Cafe ~ thanks for the scale info. I checked mine last night and it's a health o meter. It seems to be more accurate now! I guess when you weigh over 300lbs, it can play tricks on ya. But I've noticed that since I've lost the 25, the numbers have been more steady.

Jello ~ On my gosh, if you saw my cupbords you would just die. . I went on a snack food spree this past weekend. Have 2 different kinds of cookie bars at home and a box at work. For those "Just gotta have 'em" days. Target has a bulk section and I bought 3 boxes of fruit snacks, 3 box of chewy granola bars, chips galore.....bought DH 4 bags of Mother's cookies (they were on sale, of course), and I could go on and on! Oh yeah Target had a new item that I just HAD to have. They are called "Cookie and .......bars" so I bought a box of each. They had Cookie and M&M bars, cookie and & Snicker bars, Twix and Milky way....But the Oreo cookie bars are all mine, all mine I tell ya . In these here parts I'm known as "Bargain Betty"! I have a hard time paying 'regular" price for anything.

Tiger~ How'd youdo at the grocery store? I find it best for me to send DH. As you can tell from my statements above, I have a hard time shopping, but DH will stick to the list and hget what's only on the list....aaaahhhh if only I were that strong.... And trust me don't ever try the Oreo bars, one bar and your addicted, next thing ya know, you've OD'd on 'em. Hehe

I did my 20 minutes of step last night and let me tell ya, I am really strating to feel the effects. My legs are killing me! Tonight I get to walk 2miles.... oh joy, NOT!

Well it looks like I've "Got Mail"......

TTFN
(Ta Ta For Now)

Ok, I'm convinced...will not try the oreo bars.
I did ok grocery shopping except for the package of mini candy bars. I told myself they were for DHs lunch. He complains when I don't put any treats in it. The Plan...I will put the whole box, bag or whatever the treat is IN HIS LUNCHBOX the day I buy it. He will just have to start keeping it in his desk at work. Sound good?
Dyan, sounds like u are doing good with the exercise. I seem to be on an exercise strike. I have been very busy and active, better than being a couch potato I guess.
Jello, lots of foods taste too sweet now. DH always has bit-o-honey in his pocket...they hurt my teeth now. Guess that's a good thing. Even many drinks...too sugary.
So....even though I haven't had many very good days lately...I still think I've made an overall improvement on my diet habits...just need to ramp it up a bit...maybe I'll detest all sweets someday.