I'm 36. I dieted - cycles of restriction and binging for 20 years. I started at 130 lbs and ended at 195 lbs. Dieting made me fat. Sure, it was easy for me to lose weight at super reduced calories every day - I could NEVER maintain it. Two things always happened: 1) my body rebelled against the deprivation and I would eat "out of control" as my body desperately cried out for food 2) I would reach my "goal weight" and stop dieting and return to the unhealthy eating habits that made me heavy in the first place. In either case, I would always gain all the lost weight back AND MORE.
At age 35, I weighed nearly 200 lbs. I was tired, lethargic, I used to fall asleep at work nearly every day. I quit looking at myself, quit weighing myself, quit shopping. I wore the same size 18 loose fit Eddie Bauer jeans every day, the same black loafers. I quit doing anything with my hair - just let it air dry frizzy every day. No make up. I constantly dreamed and fantasized about being thin, about losing weight. I thought about losing weight more than people must think of winning the lottery.
I decided to start eating for my health. No more restriction, no more binging, just healthy foods - 6 meals a day, 1600 calories a day. Wide variety of vegetables, fruit, lean protein, low fat dairy, healthy fats, whole grains. I feel really great - not one binge, not one "out of control" moment since July 2004. Not one day sick, either.
This week, I am celebrating my first year of maintenance at my goal weight. For the first time in my life, I have lost weight and have kept it off.
My "turning point" was a combination of 3 things:
1. My mom was really serious about me coming to spend the holidays with her. She is one of those bona fide genetically skinny people and I know she loves me very much, but I don't think she understands how difficult it is for people to manage their weight. I hadn't seen her for 2 years and she hadn't seen me at my highest weight. I didn't want to go visit and have her look at me with love and pity and not talk about my weight for the entire visit.
2. I went to the bathroom at a movie theatre. When I sat down, I cut my outer thigh on a sharp edged metal trash receptacle. My thigh bled and I cried, because I realized that a normal sized person would have fit just fine. I was moving from "big girl" to "fat girl" and all I could envision was a lifetime of being too big for seats and asking for seat belt extenders on planes.
3. I read this book called Super Foods Rx: 14 Foods That Can Save Your Life. All of my grandparents had died relatively young - diabetes, cancer, heart disease, complications of alzheimers. The book was very exciting to me - the idea of using food to prevent serious diseases. I decided that day, holding the book in the aisle of Borders that I was going to change how I ate forever. My old failed diets - the restrictions, the binging, the gaining more weight than when I started, I realized everything I had done wrong and how I could really do it this time.
All it took, to lose weight, to keep it off for a year, was just a little more planning (shopping, lunch packing) and exercise.


, but I still have a LONG way to go!