Yeah I'm in hate mode right now, lol. I kinda feel like even if he does decide to come back, I'm going to conveniently be "busy" too. I'm sick of the excuses. And it's the same response every time: "Sorry I missed you; I was [insert whatever is causing him to ignore me here]". And then nothing. I'm tired of it and I'm tired of being lied to and I'm tired of guys screwing around with me. How hard is it to tell someone you're no longer interested?

I get sad because I'm lonely and I don't really have any friends who are my age and nearby who are in the same point in life as me. Everyone is paired off, married and can't be bothered with me. So, not only was I excited to have a new guy, I was excited to have a new face in my life. And I got robbed of another life outside of my damn parents and family because people don't know how to think of someone besides themselves.

Meh. I guess I better just learn to be friends with myself.

Edit: For the record, that last bit wasn't me blaming my loneliness on him or anything. I was just in a really bad "I hate the world" mood last night, lol.