AndLy |
09-01-2011 01:58 PM |
Something just clicked with me. My 18 year marriage recently (7 months ago) ended and though my weight had yo-yo'd during the course of my marriage, I was heavier more than not. I was thin when I got married. So why did I gain so much weight if I was happily married I wondered? I wasn't, that's why. Now that I have had some distance from the marriage, and from the divorce process and have been able to think I have realized several things. My ex was verbally abusive and I believe I put on weight to shield myself, like a protective barrier. He was my enemy and food was my friend.
I always thought I was a bad person and deserved to be big. I realize now that I am, in fact, a terrific person and deserve to look that way as well. I deserve to attract the kind of guy who will respect me, because I respect myself. Who will boost my self confidence because for the first time I have found some.
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