In graduate school, when I worked part time in a plus size store (amazing, but expensive - with my discount it was the first time I could afford to buy great clothes). I discovered a magazine called BBW (Big Beautiful Woman), which led me to another magazine, Radiance (a more militant "fat acceptance" magazine), which led me to the fat acceptance movement.
I don't agree with alot of the philosophy (that health for example is completely unrelated to weight), and on the other hand, it was a revolutionary concept to me that I actually deserved to be on the planet (even if I never lost a pound). Even the health philosophy isn't so radical - that dieting causes more weight gain than weight loss (I believe this is mostly true, at least when talking about the diets that restrict calories to unrealistic levels), that eating a balanced diet and being active, engaging in regular physical exercise and perhaps genetics probably had more to do with health than actual body weight. The biggest message that I received was - don't let fat prevent you from being confident or keep you from doing anything you want to do.
Now, my fat does prevent me from doing some things, but there were a lot more that I imagined or allowed it to prevent me from doing. Swimming, bicycling, hiking, horseback riding, white river rafting - the magazines showed women fatter than me (at the time) engaging in all of those things. There were even (gasp of horror) curvy and even very fat fitness and dance instructors. Yikes, a fat girl going to an exercise class, let alone leading one? Even considering the possibility, opened a whole new world of possibilities for me.
I started speaking out. Not in a political way - just voicing my opinions and concerns. When I went to job interviews, I smiled and asked if they had any concerns about my ability to do the job because of my weight. When someone snickered or insulted me "behind my back," I turned around and confronted them (at first with anger, eventually with amusement - amusement doesn't hurt me, AND seems to be more effective - people that like to abuse other people expect anger, they don't expect to be laughed at).
Fat does NOT have to affect self-esteem, confidence, or the ability to gain the appropriate level of attention from others. It does offer some people an invitation to try to belittle you, but you don't have to allow it to.
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