Dreading Valentine's Day, date nights, weddings ...
Pretty much anywhere /anytime where it's so completely obvious I'm painfully single.
So I've never, ever had a boyfriend. I've had dates, but nothing that amounted to a relationship. I blame my weight for keeping guys away (let's face it, most aren't interested in girls who look like me, and I don't necessarily blame them). I've also found that guys who DO pay attention to fat girls are often looking to 'hook up.' As if we should give it up to them to "thank them" for being seen with us. When they find out that's a no-no with me, I generally don't hear from them again.
I am so tired of being the third wheel. I'm tired of going to weddings stag. I am really really dreading Valentine's Day, but I AM grateful it's on a Saturday so I won't be at work trying to be happy for the girls who get flowers from the guys in their lives.
Can anyone else relate?
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