Bayzee : you have an awesome attitude about all this! Glad to hear you had a great week off!

Aidan : Jeeeeez, you've got courage to tackle such a long run in this cold! I only did half of what you did and it was more than enough for me When is your marathon?

The muffins looks awesome! I got totally appealed by the pistachios! Thanx for sharing!

Maddie : Aww, that sucks so bad to have to go through situations like that with your SIL. As you said, double standards can be infuriating. Especially coming from a SIL, it's not like it is someone you can choose not to see anymore or something. :S

Joss : I love the attitude ; you know what you gotta do, you're doing it and you beleive in what you are doing! That is the Joss we used to know before this crazy coach

TheBunneh : You are so close!! Keep pushing!!!

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I weigh in at 135.8 this morning after no WI yesterday and a so-so healthy day... This woosh was unexepected. The worst of TOM is over, there might be a big part of explanation here.

We drove an hour away to meet up with some friends, where my friend and I went for a 30 minutes run in the COOOOOOLD. The wind was icy and we tackled a big hill right at the beginning, which killed me, especially after running a 10k the day before. Still managed to get through it without losing any of my frozen toes The guys had prepared a huge breakfast when we got back of french toasts and ham... It was hard not to pile up calories there even if I had many fruits. I manage to finish the day around 1500 cal, even with the calorie-loaded meat pie that the boyfriend chose for dinner.

Planning to go for a speed workout run this afternoon when the temperature will be a bit warmer. Weather really SUCKS, the cold came back and there is a forecast of 8 inches of snow tomorrow, right when the paths were starting to be all cleared up. COME ON, spring, get you sh*t together!

have a good day ladies!

NO FREAKING JOKE! It was 71 & 73 degrees on Thursday & Friday, & now we're back to the high 40s. I can't take this bipolar weather much longer! I need tanlines & cutoffs & sipping beers on the hot driveway while the kidlet plays...although we are now trying to knocked up, so that might be out the window, but not the tanlines & cutoffs.

Back down to 132.9 today Love seeing that number. Took the day off from any workouts yesterday because my right elbow is giving me trouble. I broke it twice when I was little, so I always have to be a little more cautious on it. It gets sore easily, obviously. It's worth the trade off though - I love my arms now & if they get a little sore everyday, then that's ok with me

Happy Monday, feathers!

Turbo Way to go on your whoosh! I am so ready for spring too.

Maddie So jealous that your daughter lets you sleep in. If mine sleeps until 7am, I consider that sleeping in. Though I suppose I've conditioned her to waking up early, as I will wake her up between 6:30 and 6:45 on weekdays if she's not up, so we can get out of the house on time. Though most days she gets up on her own before then. All weekend, my husband and I were up at 5:30. Not because of my daughter, but because apparently I've now conditioned the puppy to wake up at that time, since I normally wake up for my workouts then.

olehcat All your thought processing just goes to show that we really do need to find our own path through all of this. What works for one person doesn't always work for the next, and there is no right or wrong way to do it. Enjoy your spring break, and try not to spend all of it studying.

Bayzee Good for you enjoying your week off, and don't sweat it too much. You know you'll get back to where you were before, you're always really good about getting back on plan when the time comes.

Aidan It's been a long long time since I had my wisdom teeth removed, but I don't remember it being that bad, and don't think I had to keep the soft food diet going for too long at all. A few weeks ago, I did have a gum graft though, and kept reading about people still having trouble eating 2 weeks later, and got all paranoid about that. My periodontist told me I only had to keep a soft food diet for the first 2 days or so, and it really wasn't a big deal. The main thing was trying to keep food away from the graft site, as I didn't want to disturb it and keep it from taking successfully. At my post op checkup, I got the go ahead to pretty much eat whatever I want... except for biting into apples. I need to cut them into chunks and chew them from the side of my mouth so I don't disturb the gums while they are still healing. You won't really have to worry about all that though, I think the main thing is just worrying about not getting food stuck in the gaping holes while they are healing.

Joss So I ended up following your advice and getting the vegetable medley instead. The veggies were rather bland and boring, and I didn't really enjoy them at all though. I was never much of one for veggies before losing weight, and while I have incorporated them now, if they aren't seasoned or a part of a dish, I usually like them steamed and very soft. These were not. I just ate them because of the nutritional benefit. I think the next time I might just get the salad with a light dressing, I think I would have enjoyed it more, but all in all, it was a success.

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Filed taxes over the weekend, and while our return is decent, it pretty much just negates my husband's old company not paying him termination pay and cancelling our benefits. But at least we don't really have to worry about the strain from that.

My weigh in over the weekend put me first in the competition, which I expected it would, since the 1st place person didn't weigh in. Will have to wait until next weekend to figure out how much of a lead I really have. The only thing I'm really nervous about is Easter being a week before the competition ends. I'd really like to have an all out day for that, but it might knock me out of 1st place. I guess I'll see what sort of a lead I have then, and re-assess.

HARRO FEATHERS how is everyone?

BF's upstairs neighbors are a bunch of punkassed 19 year olds who were up yelling and blasting music at 3:30 AM. He went up there and told them to STFU and then neither of us could fall back asleep well, tossed and turned and slept poorly until my alarm went off. We blasted "The Safety Dance" at about 7:30 AM and heard them moving around upstairs - feels good to be professionals in our late twenties seeking revenge against kids, heh. Too bad in NY it's illegal to answer your door brandishing a rifle..........

I got in an 18:10 run on the treadmill (intervals) this morning with no time to shower - definitely going for Round Two after work. I have been overeating carbs all weekend long. Roommate had a visitor Friday night and all day Saturday - we had a potluck dinner with chili, cornbread, calzones, salad, wine and beer, and took him to a pub for pub food after a nice hike through the nearby mountains on Saturday. Saturday night after we dropped him off at the bus station turned into a "pizza and UFC fights" party with gross pizza (I still had 2 slices) and only one really good fight (Carlos Condit v. Johny Hendricks). I think I'm going to make watching the fights a regular thing - I find it very inspiring, even though I don't plan on MMA/BJJ/martial arts training myself.

My boss is out sick today and I kind of have no idea what I should be doing with myself. I wish I could go home and NAP. BF and I are cooking dinner tonight - salmon fillets with salad and some other sides. He leaves Wednesday T__T and I'll be back at home listening to the puking downstairs neighbor every morning.

JessicaB Oooooh keep that first place! Easter is such a "blah" holiday in terms of food, is it worth it? - I'm mad my BF is going to be gone for Passover this year, brisket > ham and Cadbury eggs any day.

TurboMammoth NICE whoosh!!!!!! That's such a good reward for enduring TOM. I am so annoyed at this cold too - we're supposed to get snow here too, less than you guys but it's just such a pain in the a$$. Good luck on your speed run! What is your pace usually? How was that 345734895739 calorie tuna fish?

TheBunneh Congrats on the almost lowest ever weigh-in, I hope you're doing OK and things in your life are going your way now.

JossFit Civilian life awaits you! I'm happy to hear you had a nice weekend full of good workouts, good food and a massage - I need to stop spending all my money on bullsh!t and running out and set aside a chunk to spend on MYSELF for a massage day! As for the tummy troubles, I don't know what set it off, but things are back to normal. Probably stress or something.

MaddieAvePhoto What are your SIL's stats? She sounds like a piece of work - quit stooping to her level! Even if you were 110 lbs and looked like a bikini model I'm sure she'd find something to be annoying about.

Aidangm Mmm wisdom teeth removal. My friend just got his out and described the horrors of waking up with a mouth full of blood while he healed. Lovely!

Bayzee Glad you've been having a good week off. It's important to take a break and realistically it'll take what, another week to get back to where you were?

olehcat Have a great spring break! Don't overthink nutrition and weight loss while you're enjoying your time off. I seriously think that you will find the most success in the method that requires the least amount of brain power.

Harro Krampus - I swear, it's like if it's not one thing its another with living situations! I hated the apartment life because of the punk *** kids and their music/running/stomping horrid-ness, but living with my roommate's BF is sort of the same thing. Hmm, 2 more months of this? Do-able...
I like that you got old people revenge and did the same to them in the morning! HA! I don't think it's in any way wrong of you guys to do that.

Did you get your second workout in yesterday? Feeling better after carb-overdose this weekend?

I'm very lucky to have a friend who is a massage therapist so that's why I'm able to go so often. She lives near me, and for like 90-ish minutes of deep tissue/trigger point she only charges me $60. It's a bargain.

Jessica - Aww, I feel like a jerk for suggesting the veggies now! They can be hit or miss; either overcooked or undercooked... but I still feel bad you weren't satisfied with them.

Congrats on taking 1st in the competition! I am with Krampus; Easter isnt exactly a foodie holiday, at least IMO, so just stick to your guns and win that competition! If nothing else you can buy a nice Lindt chocolate bunny to enjoy AFTER it's over.

Thats great that your tax return will alleviate a bit of that financial stress. I recently just hit my goal as far as pre-separation savings, and it's a big load off of my mind to have that taken care of.

Maddie - I had a broken bone a few years ago and it still bothers me quite a bit. I've heard people say that injuries they had as children still plague them as adults and always thought that was a bit odd until I experienced it for myself! The crazy weather patterns this time of year seem to exacerbate it for me... something about sudden changes in barometric pressure.

I feel like a little old man sometimes because I'm like "Oh, my hip is acting up... it's probably going to rain tomorrow!" LOL

TheBunneh - Good to know you're still kickin! Congrats on the new low! I bet that feels great!

Turbo - Nice whoosh, nice workout, nice meals... it sounds like things are going your way lady! That was really nice of the fellas to have breakfast all ready for you when you got back from your run. One of these days I'll ask my hubby to make me breakfast and just see what he comes up with. I bet he'll make me French Toast too!

Yeah I guess I'm just in this transitional phase right now and wanting to try new things. I know eating low calorie and busting my butt works, but does it work best for my LIFE? I feel like there has to be a better way to do things. On that note;.....


*** I ordered a Bodymedia thingie last night! I am so tired of trying to figure out what my TDEE should be based on various online calculators. I am probably eating too little right now, but I've never lost on what those things say I *should* be eating for fat loss. The real answer has to be somewhere in the middle! My plan is to wear it for a week or so and just get a good baseline. From there I can create a small deficit and go back to using it whenever the mood strikes me.

My only issue is that I think I have to input my weight into the software when I set it up, and I don't really want to weigh myself! I might do it just that once and then maybe do it once a month and see how that goes?

Joss No need to feel bad for suggesting the veggies. It was a good suggestion, and only I knew that I tend to prefer salad over veggies anyhow.

If you don't want to weigh yourself to set up the Bodymedia thing, then maybe you can just input an estimate of where you think your at? I'm sure having it a few pounds off won't make that much of a difference.

Krampus Sorry to hear you slept poorly. I am glad we live in a house and don't have to worry about noisy neighbours, but I can sympathize anyhow. Whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, I have trouble falling back asleep, and spend the 2nd half of the night tossing and turning. This happens more often than I'd like, since my kiddo likes to ask me to put her music on any time she wakes up.

Joss & Krampus I realize Easter isn't really much of a food holiday compared to Thanksgiving and Easter, though the way my family does get togethers, it ends up being basically the same. There will be stuffing and lots of dessert, the only part that will make it different is that there will probably be ham instead of turkey. I guess my main problem is just with the family get togethers in general, we normally have one once a month, and I generally allow myself to indulge on that day, so I might just wait and see what sort of gap there is between me and the other participants.

We are having 2 Easter dinners though, one with my family and one with my husband's family. We are hosting the one for his family, so that will be much easier, I don't plan on making any desserts, so unless someone else brings some, it will be fine. My husband does want to deep fry a turkey, but the turkey doesn't tend to get too greasy from that anyways. It will add a few more calories, but not enough to concern me.

Oh, and the Easter candy won't tempt me, because while I will get some candy in my basket, I can put it aside and eat it later, since it won't be communal candy. I think parts of me feels anxious sometimes about wanting something before my husband eats it all. I already portioned out the candy for the baskets, and he's already polished off the excess candy, so I have no issues waiting until after the competition to indulge on that.

Morning Feathers,

Nice to see 123.8 this morning.

Super healthy dinner with the BF last night - 4 oz salmon, 1/2 sweet potato with butter and chives, and salad with mushrooms, tomatoes, bleu cheese and 1/2 avocado with wine vinegar/oil/mustard dressing. I was going to have a Key Lime Greek yogurt for dessert but I um fell asleep after activities and slept through the night. Poor BF tossed and turned and slept poorly - I think he's really stressed out and anxious about his upcoming ski trip because he didn't train for it and is now realizing it's going to be strenuous mountain hiking on skis the whole time. I guess all I can do at this point is do my best to sound reassuring, because no one likes hearing "Yep you should have done XYZ" when it's too late!

It's snowy here (ugh) and my boss is out sick for the second day in a row.

JessicaB Two Easter dinners! That's going to be a lot of food there. What kind of gap would there be between you and other participants? I am trying to convince my mom to make turkey instead of ham this year...

JossFit I totally got in that second workout and I feel pretty good after carb deloading for a day. Are the Bodymedia monitors supposed to really be accurate? I always wonder how they can be since every individual is so differently distributed etc. Maybe put in a weight lower than what you think you are to avoid overblown counts like machines at gyms do? I dunno! My friend's mom is a massage therapist who would prob give me a discount...I should hit her up.

Happy Tuesday Feathers!

Trying to keep up here but it's so busy. I don't have time for personals but I will come back tonight.

I had a hard time yesterday staying within calories. I ate about 1600 when I should have eaten 1300. I'm hungry because my body is now used to feasts, and D$%m TOM is here.

Today, I packed a perfectly healthy lunch and trying to get back on plan as much as possible. Workouts have been good this week so far. I have realized that 1300 calories is not a lot of food. I haven't weighed in as promised, but I plan to on Friday.

Be back tonight for personals

Maddie : I see you're back down in the 132's!! it did not take long to get back there, that is awesome And like you, I am so readyyyy for warmer weather. I'm pale like a ghost right now, I need some tan

Jessica : I really hope you'll keep this first place in your competition! I kinda had forgot that Easter was coming our way quickly... It is nice that you are hosting one of your dinner, it will probably reduce the stress knowing you will at least get one of the dinner totally in control!

krampus : Oh JESUS, Safety Dance!! Peeeeeerfect choice of song! And my boyfriend had the same thought of you, he prefered Condit & Hendricks fight LOL. Awww sorry to hear your boyfriend is leaving for a while! Where is he going on his ski trip already? Is it my memory acting weird or is he heading for Canadian Rockies? (I have a friend who was there last week and he had a BLAAAAST).

As for the pace question, LOL I am a SLOOOOW runner. Since I started running I was mainly focusing on increasing distance. I did increase speed too, but improvment on the distance were much more important. I try to do my tempo run at a pace under 6min/km (9.65min/mi) maintaining a steady pace (I have intervals planned later in my training program). Can't wait to start the intervals but it won't be before almost 7 weeks BLEH.

Joss : I think French Toasts are a guys favorite Easy and quick.. Personnaly, my boyfriend never tackled my Waffle makers or pancake LOL And anyways, I LOVEEE French Toasts. The boyfriend and I love to make Peanut Butter Banana French Toast sandwich (on the weekend, right before we go out for a run or something physical :P)

I had to google this Bodymedia thing... So from what I understand, you manage everyting using one single software? That seems cool Plus there website by itself is really neat, it is inspiring!

Bayzee : I tried the 1300 calories once and just going from 1500 to 1300 was hard. It is crazy how 200 cal difference can do!

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I weigh in at 135.0 this morning. Weigh is dropping FAST (too fast in my opinion). Maybe it is still the TOM stuff taking its leave? My net calories deficit is not out of the world (the last days were around -500 cal a day).

I had a bad day yesterday. I learned I did not get the job I was interviewed for last week. It just feel like another hit in the face... It is hard to put yourself together out there and act like you are a good pick for people to hire when you feel like you are some crap who can't get a job. I'm not alone in the situation, I know that, but getting it pretty much all easy all my life did NOT prepare me for that. Getting hit hard in the face biiig time. Oh well...

After learning that, I still had to get my speed workout done. The distance got increase to 6k this week, it was cold and it was hard. I still manage to do it (aiming for under 6min/km- got 5:52min/km). I wanted to give up at some point but I kinda got a feeling of ''you can't get a job and get your sh*t together in your life, at least push through THIS, it will be at least one thing you can control''.

We were supposed to be hit hard by a snow storm today but now they are only forecasting light snow... With the previous forecast, I had planned to skip the gym workout and spend the day working on my stuff at home while cooking an enormous 6.5 pounds chicken. With this light snow, I feel bad, I should go to the gym, but I think I will still stay at home and do some bodyweight thing later today if I feel like it. I ran everyday for the past 3 days and I'm feeling BLEH.

Big rambling over..

Hope you are having a great day and surviving blizzard!!

They say that they are like ~90% accurate (or better). I was just reading on another forum about some women that have them and later got RMR tests done at their doctors and the numbers were almost exact.

Every online calculator I plug my stats into basically says my TDEE is A LOT higher than I actually eat (sometimes double) but I don't trust them! Eating more has NEVER gotten me where I want to be, so I am leery to up my calories much on a whim. I think using the Bodymedia monitor will give me a better idea, even if it's not 100% accurate. If I can go with a simple TDEE minus 20-25% I think that's perfect. I just don't know what my TDEE really is!

I wouldn't be using it as a daily thing, e.g. "It says I burned 2800 calories today so I'll eat 2300 today". I want to wear it for about a week, get a good feel for what my average is, and then shoot for an average of 75-80% of that for my daily calorie intake.

We'll see how it goes. I figure since I'm not weighing right now this is a good time to do it and really let the mirror and my clothes be my guide, not the scale since there is bound to be a lot of fluctuation doing something like that. That of course is assuming that my calories DO need to be raised a lot. I might be on point where I'm at... not really sure.

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Your dinner sounds great! Thats right up my alley; nice simple satisfying foods. I'm actually about to dive into a big old chicken salad with chives, sweet potato, avocado and balsamic vinegar. Kind of similar!

I think you have the right idea with regard to the BF. Sometimes you just have to be that supportive lady and avoid sounding like "I told you so!" which never helps anything! I'm sure he'll still have fun, and hopefully after he gets back you two will have fun catching up.

Jessica - It may not even NEED my weight input to do it's thing, since it measures all these different body heat/heart rate/skin thingies. The weight input might just be for the tracking software so that you can track your losses. If it does NEED it, I'll probably just do like you suggested and enter in my last known weight. Two days of overeating and then two weeks of dieting probably has me right at that same weight anyway.

I think you'll figure out the Easter dinner situations as they arise. If nothing else you can take the safe middle road; get in some good workouts around the events, pick one or two 'special' things to have a bit of, and then fill up on healthier choices. I know that for me it's SOOO MUCH easier said than done but when I really want to I can definitely stick to my guns. It will just be a matter of how much you want to, and only you will know that and will only know when the time comes.

http://www.negharfonooni.com/2012/06...in-moderation/

THIS is so me it's not even funny!

Ha! Me too! Actually, I think it is for most of us struggling with weight.

The key I have always tried to figure out (and haven't yet) is how to maintain; How not to go up and down and FIND the balance while still enjoying the finer things (food and wine) in my life. I'm not sure it's possible to feel ripped and shredded while adding the extras. Maybe for a small period of time, but eventually it catches up.

Problem with me is, I don't want want to feel squishy anymore...so whenever I go up even a few pounds, I feel bloated and puffy. I hate it. When I start to allow treats, I gain no matter if they are just small. So I either accept that I look and feel better (less bloated, not emotionally) when counting, weighing foods, counting calories and obsessing over every bite, or I accept a less perfect body, a bit of bloat with some treats and for the most part, a happier ME.

Hmmmm...Food for thought

Hey girls! Late check-in! Play date day & then my MIL & I drove to Denver for some impromptu shopping. And I didn't eat at my favorite restaurant this time!! Woohoo! I am going out with my gfs again on Friday, & then hubs & I are going out to dinner with this guy & his gf from our church on Sunday (he has testicular cancer So, I figured I couldn't justify eating my burrito today. HUGE FEAT!

Joss - One weigh in won't kill you. You might be pleasantly surprised! PLUS, I really wanna know what you weigh!! LOL!

Jessica - Ditto on the candy! I'm going to put 1 piece in my girl's basket & she can eat it. I'm not going to buy of candy when I will be the one hoarding it anyway. And my 2 year old doesn't need tons either.

Turbo - Girl, that is not the kind of talk that gets things done. You are NOT defined by whether or not you get some job. Maybe you wouldn't have fit well there or even enjoyed the job. Maybe this is how it was supposed to happen so that the exact right door can open for you soon. You can't control much in this world, but you also don't need to hoard the control in your diet & exercise. You just hit a rough patch - we all do it. You'll look back in the future & this will be just a blip on your radar. AND YES! That weight is dropping FAST!

Bayzee - I have ALWAYS said that I would rather be a couple pounds up on the scale than constantly depriving myself of the foods I love in life. That doesn't mean you live in that state of mind, but it does mean that you treat yo' self when you can. Like today - I wanted that burrito - I don't go out there often, so it's a major treat, but knowing I was going out Friday & Sunday night, I just chose yogurt instead. And I'm so glad I did! I may never be a hard body, but so what? It's not what will, ultimately, make me happy & fulfilled.

Good morning Feathers!

TOM is kicking my butt this week; cravings and bloat! Like I need to feel more blotaed? LOL!
I tried to stay at 1300 calories again yesterday, but I ate just over 1400. I'm finding it hard to get back on track with the food, but no problem with the workouts. Still did not weigh-in which is a record for me Still planning on weighing in of Friday though.

A few personal now and I'll come back later...a week off and I have tons of work to catch-up on.

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Krampus...Plain Greek n/f yogurt with 1 tbsp peanut butter and 1/2 banana cut up is my favorite snack or breakfast. I love it! I can't beleieve you just discovered it! lol! Try it with almond butter or pumpkin butter too.
I noticed you are not losing, but maintaining a very good weight and enjoying good food and drinks in the meantime. Sorry if you already said it, but what are you goals with the new lifting program...cut or bulk? Or are you trying to recomp like me?

Joss...I so envy your strength not to get on the scale. I can't do it. I'd have to be a weekly weigh-in minimum, which I hope to move to soon.

I'm sure the visits with hubby are hard because the expectations are so high. Men are soooo different than women in sharing their feelings, so it's AMAZING that hubby tuned in to what you said because most men would not admit or fix the problem. That is HUGE in a marriage.

Let's talk calories...When I eat more than 1400, I gain. At 1400, I feel puffy. My body just likes 1200-1300 range. So I'm going to try calorie cycling next week...lower caloreis/carbs on my 2 days off from lifting. It's hard to find a balance and every body is different. It is not realistic to stay at 1200-1300 calories for me long term, nor is it healthy. At 5'3 my maintanance calories are about 1650 depending on the claculator I use, so I'm not eating at much of deficit. But I still feel it. I plan on staying in a lowish deficit June with some refeed meals. I'm trying to figure out things for over the summer when I'm off (and when I gain the most). That is the hardest part of weight management for me.

Turbo...Let's just say I'm praying for a woosh after TOM! Way to go! But remember, you are working hard and hard work has to eventually pay off.

Jessica...I'm rooting for you in the competition. I just said to hubby that I didn't want to go visit family for Easter because I know it will be an eat and drink fest. I always say I won't do it, but I do! I have no self-control when I see everyone having drinks and enjoying themselves.

Maddie...A lot depends on your goals...I sat at 120lbs for a while and I was happy that I lost weight and was down from about 140. But, then I wanted to step it up. I don't look bad at 120, but my goal now is to have a bikini ready body all of the time. It is very different than just dieting to lose weight. I think this happens to a lot of people who diet, they are never really "happy" with their bodies no matter how much they lose. So now, I'm focusing on looking fit and lean as opposed to just losing weight. In fact, I'm trying hard not to lose much more because I am at the lower end of the weight scale for my height.

Alex, Aiden, Dorian...Hope all is well.

Turbo - I'm so sorry I totally missed your post yesterday! I wish I could give you a big hug about the job thing... that really sucks and it sounds like overall you just had sort of a crappy day. I'm hoping that today you feel a bit better and have a new perspective on things! You got some disappointing news, and it's hard not to let that effect your workouts. Try not to be so hard on yourself; after all, you still got up and WENT! Some people would have cracked open the wine and cheese and had a pity party.

I'm sure your weight will stabilize. If anything, consider it a 'buffer' so that if you DO decide to have a pity party (or just a regular party / big dinner) you don't have to stress over gaining so much. Win!! ) I call that insurance. haha

Yeah, the Bodymedia thing has all sorts of features, but I really just want to wear it to tell me how many calories I REALLY burn in a typical day! LOL I want to 'reverse diet' and slowly work on bringing my calories up, (like averaging 100 more calories a day each week) so this will give me a better idea of how much to raise them while still staying in a SLIGHT deficit so that I can lose a bit of fat.

Maddie - You're right, it won't kill me, but I LOVE not knowing how much I weigh. It was seriously messing with me! I doubt I'll be pleasantly surprised, but I looked around a bit more yesterday and I do have to input a weight to start. I don't want to guess as Jessica suggested (even though I am more comfortable with that) because the whole point of getting this thingie is for it to be more accurate than some generic calculator I find online.

The last time I weighed was on the 7th, and then after that I had two huge stuff-my-face days with my hubby. I've been 'dieting' again since then, so by the time I weigh it will have been two weeks. I figure that my weight should be right about the same as it was, which was 127.something.

Anyway, it's supposed to be delivered on Friday so I think Saturday I'll have to bite the bullet and weigh in the morning.

It sounds like you have quite the busy social calendar over the next few days!

Bayzee - Its not hard at all for me not to weigh... actually doing it is the hard thing for me! haha

You'll get back on track with your diet in no time I'm sure. You're already doing well even if you didn't do 100% as well as you would have liked! Once TOM is over and you shed that post-holiday water you'll be back in your groove and probably smashing some PRs at the gym!

With regard to calories; I am getting the bodymedia device for that very reason. I'm tired of 'guessing' and I know that with my activity levels and muscle mass I *should* be able to eat more and not gain. Since I'm not weighing right now, this is the PERFECT time to reverse diet. I can do it without freaking out about scale fluctuations and use the BMD as a sanity-check/gauge.

I've said it before and I'll say it again; you KNOW you dont really gain fat eating over 1300 calories, so I think you need to trust your trainer and do what she says. Eat more if she says so, lift more if she says so, and go by pictures/mirror/measurements as your PRIMARY gauge of progress.