thanks guys!

fatpantsskinnyjeans - thanks for allowing me to vent and be miserable sometimes... yes, patience is definitely something I need to work on. I don't know why, but I keep panicking when I think about how much time it will take to lose this weight. And each day that I wake up in the same body, it just adds to my anxiety.

Looking back at past efforts, those plateaus that seemed to last FOREVER were actually just a week, maybe two at the most. But at the time, it felt like ages. I need to remember it's the same now. I guess I'm not used the first few pounds taking so long to lose. Usually, I lose a few pounds easily the first few weeks, then it gets hard. This time, I just see no sign of "I'm doing the right thing" and that's been hard, because I think to myself that I must not be making the right moves.

krampus - oh man, I haven't gone near a store in months, except for Uniqlo where I HAD to go and buy some basics (jeans, underwear, socks and fleece zip-up, etc) because nothing I own fits me anymore :(
Yes this country is definitely cruel to "real-sized" women, that's for sure.
And what you said about "putting life off"... yes I totally am guilty of doing that right now. I also think about my "fat years" or "skinny months" as if they have more or less value than other times in my life. I know that I need to get out more, accept more invitations, go shopping for clothes even if I don't want to, live life more... it's just been really hard. I spend most of my time at work (I'm a preschool teacher), at the gym, or holed up in my bedroom watching House M.D. (lol).

It's really sad that I place less value on myself when I'm "fat." It's a really unhealthy mentality and I feel like I'm never going to win with my weight loss efforts until I have that part of me figured out. Growing up in Japan certainly hasn't helped me feel good about myself regardless of size.

Youre not alone in your thinking and its very hard to continue doing something thats so uncomfortable when you arent seeing results. Just know that changes are happening with your body. You will see the weight come off and we will all be here waiting to hear about it :) Why is it that women in your country are looked down upon for have a womanly figure?

So I sort of cheated and weighed myself today. I try not to weigh myself after a night of drinking because its sort of cheating because you are so dehyrdated that you most likely weigh less than what you really are. So the scale said 129.4!!! I know tomorrow it will go back up but its still fun to see :D

Ugh getting ready to go out last night just reassured me of how far I am from goal. Even though my clothes fit a little looser and the scale is going down, I was abosultely miserable trying to find an outfit. I still look so thick in dresses and boots. I just really want to start seeing the fat go away in my legs :( I am hoping once I am in the 120s and closer to the mid 120's ill really start to see a difference. Oh well, all I can do is be patient. Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend!!

Dianne042425, I don't think there's anything wrong with a little positive reinforcement.... weigh away! Hahahah.

I know that for me, that makes me want to maintain it... nothing wrong with a little peek to keep you going.

chickennugget126, that's what this website is for, and I love it too. You can say your weird inside-my-head-only diet thoughts, and it's totally acceptable & judgment free.


As for me, I am starting to see little, itty-bitty changes!

126.6 this morning.... slow & steady!

Have a great Sunday :)

hey everyone. COngratulations on your losses so far.

I weighed in today at 138 lbs. I have never been at this weight and cannot wait!

Most East Asian women have modest busts and petite bone structures no matter their size - obviously there are some women who rock curvy bodies and some who are busty, but they're a bit rare. The most common shoe size in Japan is a US size 6 and the average Japanese woman is 5'2 and 115 lbs.

It's also not considered feminine to lift weights or exercise hard. Dieting is more common and there is no bias against "skinnyfat." In my months of jogging around the neighborhood I've only ever seen male joggers.

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Up on the scale. I think the curry rice I had for dinner caught up with me. Yesterday was a complete waste of a day - I didn't leave the house at all and I took a NAP in the afternoon. Not sure if that was a hangover or what. Today will be better. Going to have chicken, prunes and cheese for lunch (I really desperately need to go grocery shopping...) and buy a big bag of mandarin oranges and spinach and shiitakes to have a detox dinner. My body hates me for overloading on carbs all weekend.

Don't ya hate that?! The water weight thing is so horrible, makes you feel like you went backwards. Good for you for exercising, even though it's not the norm where you are.


I'm at work and trying REALLY hard not to snack... I do have a little bit of calorie wiggle room, but still.... I want to meet my goal. Hmph.

We'll be the December feathers before we know it! :)

FPSJ, your 4:41 am post (nurse, right?) reminded me to ask you -- have you seen all the evidence about how it's harder for people who work the night shift to maintain their weight? As if it weren't hard enough for nurses, with the stress and abundant food.

Chickennugget, :hug:. You will get there. I know you said you have a trainer -- are you doing strength training?

Lose25, congrats on a new low! Enjoy the ride down -- it's exciting every time you hit a new "record low" on the scale!

PetiteP, I keep meaning to tell you how much I like your avatar pic. You look very sassy (and I would expect nothing less). :D I think of you whenever I lift at the gym -- I hope that's flattering and not weird! ;)

I am up again today. Sigh. I have to make sure this doesn't become a vicious cycle -- eat low during the week and "lose," binge on the weekend and "gain." I've seen other people on 3FC caught up in that and it's just not good. I have TOM due any day so that may be part of it. I remember saying to my DH last month, "My period is due any day and I just can't eat enough! I felt that way this weekend, too.

I did have a great run yesterday and I signed up for a half-marathon training program that starts in January, with the goal of getting my time down to 2 hours. :running:

Good morning feathers! I skipped the scale this morning. I decided to give myself a day back on track before I torture myself. Trip was great but I did succumb to mexican food and man, was it GOOD! I didn't eat terribly but I ate what I wanted and I didn't feel bad about it. :)

The house was GREAT! I had the inspection done and it was nearly completely blank in terms of repairs. I loved it more than I did in pictures. Yay! Movers come in just over a week and we drive out in 2 weeks. Moving is crazy.

Yep, you've got that right!
I don't intend to do it forever... but unfortunately, I am making the most progress career wise by making the sacrifice and working nights.

It sure is stressful....
As for people bringing food, it's not too bad where I am. I've been able to resist it so far, when it does pop up.

This week I am going to work on prepping lots of bulky veggies and low cal stuff to bring with me, so I can maintain my energy levels and stay on plan.

I'm just getting into running myself, you'll have to share with us how your training program goes! :)

Good morning Feathers!!

Krampus - are tall asian women looked down upon?? Is being "shorter" a big thing there? Are they all about feminity?

Amy - Whats wrong with gaining on the weekends and losing during the week? Keeps it balanced - "maintaining". I think you should be allowed to go off on the weekends - especially since you are running!

Changed - Glad you had a good time and allowed yourself to enjoy the food without a huge guilt trip...

As I suspected, Sunday morning was just a tease. But good news it wasnt too much of a tease! I weighed in at 130 on the nose today. Could I possibly hit the 120's for real tomorrow morning?! Oh my, what a thought!!!

Have a great day feathers!!

That's so awesome Dianne! I think you're going to make your Thanksgiving goal!

Dianne, you're so stinkin' close! You're going to make it! :)

So I was dead set against running today. I woke up late, slugged my way through class feeling tired and generally lousy, and walked back determined not to run until tonight. But after some oatmeal (I ate only 2 egg whites, an apple, and a banana with a little apple butter for breakfast, so I needed something more) I felt way better, got my shoes on, and just DID IT! No clue what time I'm getting on these runs--my ipod and watch are toast. But I know that I fought the I-don't-wanna-do-this-anymore feeling and WON! :)

Thanks so much!!

I am so envious of your motivation. I too have that really bad mentality that sabatoges my plans to exercise. When I am feeling tired or just not in the mood, I always talk myself out of it. I am going to use you as motivation. Although I am so tired today with very little energy, I will go running!! :)

oneoftwelve-- Love the motivation!

dianne042425--You know what works for me? I think about the dollar amount I am GIVING away if I don't go to the gym. In my mind it's just a literal waste of money, and the guilt/irritation that follows is enough to get me there.

... especially since I can't really do it outdoors anymore....it's getting soOOOo cold out!

Changed - Thank you for your nice motivation!! I hope I can make it! :)

FPSJ - That normally would work but I dont belong to a gym anymore. I cancelled my membership for that very reason. Was wasting my money away by not going. Now, I just go running outside!