Hi everyone,

I am having a tough time getting back on track. For the last 3 weeks or so, I have been SO good. Eating healthy, no junk, and being very active. But then about four days ago, I went crazy and started to eat junk again. And once that started, I couldn't stop... I ate stuff I wasn't letting myself eat for a long time.

I am the classic case of someone who restricted herself too much and was maybe overdoing the exercise a bit... and now I feel like i've lost control, gained some of that precious weight I lost BACK, and feeling defeated. But I'm not done, yet. I just really need some support from you guys...

I haven't been very good today either, and I have never felt so exhausted and sleepy at work. I know that eating healthy and exercising is what is good for me and what makes me feel great... but why is it so hard to keep doing it? I also suffer from depression and when I'm healthy, I can manage it... when I'm not, it all becomes a bit much.

Ugh... discouraged and feeling a bit hopeless...

chickennugget, it's all in the game...trying to stay good, trying to stay positive. And each time we fall off the wagon...and become aware of what we are doing...then we take baby steps to get back on the wagon. Don't beat yourself up and don't try to get back exactly where you were immediately. Decide on one thing to do for the next week and do that one thing: drink x amount of water, or walk 15 minutes, or cut back on sodas or whatever. That will make you feel like you are taking back control.

Good luck!

I'm in the middle of doing the exact same thing you're doing chickennugget. Eating crap for days on end, depression, feeling out of control, etc. And my trainer isn't back for two weeks so no accountability to her.

So why don't you and I make a deal? Tomorrow is May 1, the start of a new month. Just for tomorrow let's you and I each post one thing we're going to do just for that day to get back on the "wellness wagon".

See you here tomorrow?

Dagmar (and full of ice cream and cookies)

My one thing toward getting back OP today was to put the rest of my junk food into the compost. My goal for the rest of the week is to not buy any more.

Hope you have a good day today!

Dagmar

Hi Dagmar,

My one good thing is to brush the dust off my running shoes and go for a quick jog after work. Or brisk walk.

Thanks for your empathy and I don't feel so alone now. I totally didn't realize today is the first of May! New month, new start.

Yesterday I started off the day eating crap and just felt so tired and sleepy all day... yawning a lot and feeling bad. Today, I started off with fruit and yogurt, my healthy default, and I'm feeling pretty good so far. This time around, though, I'm not going to stress out or be too restrictive, and overdo this "healthy lifestyle" thing. Stress isn't gonna help anyone...

also thanks to everybody for their words of encouragement...

Way to go girls in taking the steps to getting on that wagon again keep it up... We're humans, not machines so we just keep plugging away to do best we can...

My thing for today is to call my father and tell him I will block his phone calls if he ever again yells at me on the phone or leaves threats on my machine.

Dagmar

Hey Dagmar, I bet you will feel better once you make that call. It is very hard to confront your frustations... however I bet your emotions will thank you! Good Luck!!

My one good thing today is to eat a full five servings of fruits and vegetables. I'm almost there.

I'm sorry to hear about your dad being annoying; tell him how you feel, he may not even realize just how much he's affecting you.. I dunno, sometimes parents can be like that...

My dad has been a verbally abusive ******* for as long as I can remember. He regards women as servants at best, slaves if he had his way. He doesn't acknowledge women as people in their own right and has no concern for what I feel, think, or believe.

The only reason I still continue to deal with him, on a very limited basis, is that I want the house he owns to come to me when he dies. My mother died without a will and she had, for all of my life, promised this house to me. From the time I was a little girl I had to work in that house, doing chores, making dinner, caring for the yard etc.

I'll be damned if I let his relatives in Estonia get this too. He has already given them over $100,000.00 of savings that both he and my mom contributed into for their retirement. They also got all of my mom's jewelery, including a couple of nice pieces I had given her for Christmas and her birthdays.

Sorry, I can rant on for days about all of the bad blood between me and that man.

Dagmar

Hi chickennugget,

This part of your post stood out to me:

And once that started, I couldn't stop... I ate stuff I wasn't letting myself eat for a long time.

I think that part of the reason you "fell of the wagon" was perhaps because you were restricting yourself too much (as you noted). Unless you are the type of person who absolutely CANNOT eat "just one" of something, I would suggest allowing yourself small treats of the things you really like. That way, you will not feel as though you're depriving yourself. After all, is that the way you want to live the rest of your life? Not being able to eat what you like? As you have probably heard, it's all about moderation.....trust me, I couldn't even dream of cutting chocolate out of my diet....but I can let myself have one small thing every time I get a craving. Because if you never give in to yourself at all, it just builds and builds and builds until you "go crazy"!

I know you can do it if you take it one day at a time - don't think about yesterday or tomorrow, just focus on doing the right thing in that moment.

Good luck!!