So, I've spent the whole week being very good with my eating...well, when I say good, I mean I've been eating clean. I've been very bad in that I really haven't been eating enough which is obvious by the fact that the scale is down so many pounds in just a few days. BUT, I've been feeling great with what I've been eating, haven't been hungry, etc.

So, for the dysfunctional part...I had chili for supper tonight (after being very good all day) and then went back for a second spoonful. I also had a very small roll with it. I wanted another roll AND I wanted the blueberry cake smothered in caramel sauce that was there for dessert BUT I didn't have any. Instead I finished off supper with about 2 cups of grapes. I feel like crud b/c I feel like I cheated and binged. On chili, a roll and grapes??? Sigh. Talk some sense into my thick bonehead, would ya?

I guess it's just b/c my stomach feels bloated and looks extra fat. Stupid carbs do it to me every time and I know better.

Ok, I feel better now. Just needed to vent I guess...though I don't know why, it's kinda stupid. Sorry. *rofl*

Yep, my body officially hates carbs. I'm up two pounds this am just from that supper. *sigh* I know, I know, it's not real weight...it's still frustrating though.

We live, we learn ... You're doing great just by the fact that you didn't eat the blueberry cake smothered in caramel sauce

to you!!

I am licking the monitor screen

Dagmar

*ROFLMBO* Dagmar!!

Stupid MIL made a huge ham dinner last night. I swear she's trying to make me gain everything back again...misery loves company right? And she sure is a miserable old b...but I digress. *lol* I skipped it altogether. I told dh, you have two options, make an excuse for me and go yourself or listen to your mother b*tch while I sit there with my own dinner and not eating hers. *snicker* He decided he'd make an excuse for me, and while they pigged out on high cal, high fat junk, I had a nice chicken salad and protein drink. Still up 2lbs this am...but oh well.

I agree that you did well not touching the blueberry stuff. Your MIL needs to realize that you not only are losing weight to look and feel better about yourself, but also to be a healthier person in general.

Family dinners are just the worst. If you limit what you eat more and more is pressed on you. If you say you are dieting the answer invariably is
"you're skinny enough - you don't need to lose any weight" to which I, clever girl, now reply
"yes, but I don't need to gain any weight back either".

And then there are the desserts and, in our family, a whole separate round with coffee and "but I baked it especially for you because you said you like chocolate", to which I now reply "yes but I like raw fruit too. How about a fruit platter next time?" Why do people get so offended if you politely decline sugar, fat, etc.? I'm sometimes tempted to lie and say that I've developed adult-onset diabetes just so I can eat well at these things .

I'm glad my family is not close - less dinners that way .

Dagmar (fruit platter anyone?)

Dagmar,

I love those lines! Sometimes I feel so weird trying to enforce your healthy lifestyle around other people, but when I think about it, it makes no sense.

Way to go