3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community

I have read some of the new posts. And I can definitely relate to just about everything. As a kid, I had a really high metabolism and could eat anything. With my first child, at 21, I nursed him and continued to eat the same way I did when I was pregnant. When I stopped nursing, I still ate that same way. With my second child, I did the same thing. Throughout my 30's, I continued to eat the same way. By the time I was 40, my metabolism slowed down considerably. And now, 8 years later, I have a lovely 'muffintop' going on. All my weight is in my middle. I'm worried about where my weight is because I know it's an apple. My grandmother had a heart attack early and my mother had heart problems as well. They both were overweight and carried it around their middle. I know the dangers. So, mostly I want to be healthy. I also look young for my age and I want to match my body with my face! :cool:
My ex-husband used to tell me I was fat, so it didn't surprise me that he found someone else. I know I bought into the lies he told me, of never being good enough - to which I have turned to food. We've been divorced a year now and every time I have to contact him, I wind up stuffing my face with whatever I can find. I love carbs, so it's usually that. And then I feel really bad for eating the whole bag of potato chips, loaf of french bread, cheese, whatever is there to eat. My sons are grown and I live alone, so I don't usually have a lot of food on hand unless it's something that won't spoil quickly. I also love to bake, so who is going to eat all those nice warm cookies fresh out of the oven???? LOL With teaching, going to school, volunteering and babysitting, I'm running around alot. When I'm home, I sit in front of the computer.
I just want to be able to lift my grandchildren without feeling pain the next day. I want to be around when my granddaughter gets married. So, my main goal is to HEALTHY.
I hope this is enough. Thanks for listening.