I'm a fast food addict as well, I crave it
constantly. And now that I don't have it anymore, and plus with the fast to break the food addiction, I'm thinking about it. Constantly.
Constantly. I can't get it off my mind.. last night I went to bed at 8pm just so I could stop thinking about it.
When I read that back to myself, I realize just how much of an addict I really am.
What's worse is that my emotions have changed too in just a day.. I'm irritable like you wouldn't believe. It's like coming off drugs.. I'm having physical changes, personality changes, sleep disturbances, crazy thoughts... it's like some form of insanity breaking the habit.
I'm only on Day 2 but I feel like giving up.
Instead, I'm trying to remember: [7:31] O children of Adam, take your adornment at every masjid, and eat and drink,
but be not excessive. Indeed,
He likes not those who commit excess.
I know that Allah(swt) does not want for me the path I have chosen ... but of course I have always had the freedom to choose it anyway, and I sure went astray! But now I need to focus on what is best for me. Allah(swt) knows what is best for me.. I have to focus on that.
So I have to stick with it.
It's soooo hard.
I particularly enjoy this dua, it helps me focus:
"O Allah, I hope for Your mercy, do not leave me for even the duration of an eye blink and correct my total condition. Besides You there is none worthy of worship".
