[berryblondeboys]

I'm having commitment issues from unplugging it and putting it on. It's like taking another huge step. Am I ready for this "really"? (BodyMedia Fit Core is a lot like a FitBit - tracking steps, food, sleep, weight, etc).

I bought the membership for 2 years, got a new arm band, etc just under 13 months ago. I have not worn it in that time. I plugged it in to charge and found I gained 48 pounds since last wearing it. I knew that, but I didn't need to "see" that. At this point it's like rubbing salt in a wound. I'm ready to deal with TODAY'S journey, not be reminded about how I didn't meet the last one's journey. If that makes sense.

But... I'm having a hard time committing to getting back to "real" exercise. I've been walking all last week - but leisurely. Just getting my feet under me again... but to fully commit to watching my every step and detailing my meals, etc... it scares me for some reason.

I have my eating 100% under control. I feel good. But I'm a bit confused by this fear of diving 100% in.. what's up with that I wonder?

Anyone ever have similar feelings after a regain?

[berryblondeboys]

Alright.... it's on and I walked to get my son at school (and I was puffing a bit going uphill all the way to get there). Later I'll take another walk. It's baby steps right now, but I also don't want to get injured or aggravate the other minor injuries I have.

[berryblondeboys]

ACK! And I updated my password on mynetdiary and imputed my food for the day. I see that exactly a year ago was the last time I logged in ONE YEAR AGO... and I weighed 195 (which was also 30 pounds over my lowest weight). Sigh....

Well... to learn from this and hopefully never relapse like that again.

[CherryPie99]

Regret is a waste of energy, Melissa - onward and upward!! You got this!!