Power 90 *gulp!*
So my friend Tasha had great results with this, so I got the P90 series DVDs and stuff. It's time to get off this plateau, I have been hovering between 171 and 177 pounds since May now. It's been so long since I have stepped on the scale and felt pride. I remember when I first saw 179 on the scale, I cried. I was so amazed that I made it. But I haven't made it out of the 170's yet, not in 6 months. I have lost some inches, and I haven't really gained any of the weight back. At this time last year, I was 196-198 pounds. Today my scale said 176.6 pounds, so I am, still, 20 pounds lighter, which is huge. Congratulations me!
HOWEVER.
It's not like I have achieved the goals I had set for myself. I still have over 40 pounds to lose. I know that with real effort put into this, I could have reached my goal by now. But I haven't. Slap on the wrist, but I had also vowed to myself that 2010 was going to be my LAST "FAT" YEAR.
And well, as of now, I'm still obese. I need to lose another 20 pounds in order to not be "OBESE" anymore, and be in the slightly less outrageous-sounding "overweight" category. I would very much like to at least be "overweight" by the time 2011 comes; that way I won't feel like I failed myself for the Xth time.
So I will actually commit to this P90 program. I'm going to be doing this for the next 90 days, starting today.
I am committing to this on this forum because I can't keep myself accountable unless I know I have other people watching my progress and can't disappoint them. I know it's not like you're monitoring me but I like to pretend, so that I get off my butt and exercise a bit more.
I hope this helps because I'm losing my motivation every time I see that the scale doesn't budge. I'm trying this, and with a real effort put in it, hopefully I can get some real results again. It's been so long since I've felt proud of myself after stepping on the scale, it's time to change that.
This was all really long and sorta pointless, but honestly I am tired of being stuck at this point, so I'm going to try to change it.
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