[fitgal2]

So
last night my dad calls ( I am staying with the BF right now) and he tells me that I have an appointment wednseday, so i am thinking that it is for this rash that has poped up, so I called him this morning to find out which clinic it is at. then he tells me that that its at a completly different hospital than the one my Oncologist is at, and its not even for my oncologist. I am soooo confused, he did even ask what the appointment is for! Sometime I get so mad at him, I am dealing with so many doctors, and I have had a few tests done in the past month for issues in the "female" department. I had a colposcopy last week...so now I am thinking that something is wrong! but its at a different hospital than the colposcopy was done...and a different doctor...and of course it saturday so I wont bee able to find out until monday!!!! I hate this stupid rollercoaster!!!!


sorry needed to get that out

[fitgal2]

PHEW!!!

Ok that appointment was NOTHING!!!! I feel silly now! haha but the more that happens the more I will be able to relax next time!

How is everyone doing? I have decided that I am just not ready to start an exercise routine just yet...I have decided to start January 2...new year, new me! lol...but I am still going strong with the diet...figure its best to do one thing at a time!

[lessofsarahtolove]

Hi there, fitgal ~

Mid-June I finished 6 months of chemo for advance stage lymphoma, so I'm right in the throes of follow-up visits and scares myself. It's a real challenge, isn't it? I guess it's just part and parcel of the post-cancer journey. Beats the heck out of the alternative, though, doesn't it?

Best to you....

[fitgal2]

lessofsarahtolove~~

Totally agree...I would rather have constant scares that turn out to be nothing than have anything else!!! Its tough being a survivor, but I try to remind myself of all the blessings that occured during my treatment and even are still occuring now! It helps to keep thinking of all the good that has come oout of the whole situation!...I know who my friends REALLY are, I kow the man I am with will be there for me and I know how strong I really am!

[imabriton]

Hi everyone, I've been lurking around this great site trying to find a place to fit in. I'm a newbie about to kick in the diet and new life style tomorrow I am a colon cancer survivor 10 years, surgery radiation 12 mth chemo. One side effect of my chemo was a huge weight gain, 80lbs and I have gradually added more on over the 10 years. I am so grateful to be a survivor, but feel kind of guilty because I haven't done what I feel is expected of me as a survivor. Embraced life, run marathons, climbed mountains yada yada yada. I don't know if it's a long term chemo effect but I have never felt fit since I got well. I have been given a clean bill of health, but totally lack motivation. I think that when we are going through the treatments, experience etc. our whole life is geared to that, then one day we are let go and thats that. Almost a let down. Maybe that's just my conception though. Anyway Happy healthy New Year to all. Just glad to be here and I plan to suceed

[Heva2015]

Hi there
This is cool...I was diagnosed with cancer in 1998 when I was 17 and lost 80lbs on chemo. After that I had steroids and have ballooned to over 250lbs. I'm not on steroids anymore but am finding it so hard to lose weight. The doctor says the previous cancer has nothing to do with it but I can't be too sure.

Heather

[leeinwv]

I had breast cancer this past year. They did a lumpectomy + 5 nodes.
I had 37 weeks of radiation. I am on Amimdex for five years. The doctor said I had the fast acting kind and I had to be watched very closely. I barely missed chemo.

[lessofsarahtolove]

Hello imabriton and Heather - just wanted to reply to your posts regarding weight loss after chemo. I worked my tail off last year to steadily lose about 80 pounds in 8 months or so -- only to regain about 25 during chemo/steriods and another 10 after.

imabriton, what you said about the guilt of not realizing your second chance potential is so true; it really struck a chord with me. I think a lot about that. I am finding it very, very difficult to get my mojo back -- to regain that "nothing is going to get in the way of my success" determination. I don't have any answers, I'm sorry to say, but I did want to say that I am glad to hear from others in the same boat.

I can say honestly that I'm determined to not stay fat forever -- I am sure that I will be able to repeat my previous success. Where I get a little unclear is why exactly I'm not finding the wherewithall to adhere once again to the plan that worked so well for me before.

It's absolutely all a head game -- there's nothing magical about it, and I believe with all of my heart that each of us absolutely has the power to seize control of our situations. The power lies within us; we just have to reclaim it and then just act. One healthy choice at a time.

I just can't understand why I'm struggling so much to get to the acting part!!