Hi everyone. Been keeping up on the post but having trouble responding.

Sorry.
Gobbie, the fear of losing your dog is not uncommon. My cat has a kidney disease and it has given me something to freak out over. That is part of the obsessive compulsive disorder I suffer from. I was told my the doctor and therapist that o.c.d. can go hand in hand with panic/aniexty. I get this overwhelming fear that he is going to die. Even that something will happen in our home while I'm away. It can take me up to 1 or 2 hours, just to leave the house because I fixate on making sure nothing is wrong in the house. I check the stove hundreds of times to make sure all the burners are off and that the oven is off as well. I also check light sockets to make sure nothing is touching them. I check the alarm clocks to make sure they are off. When I'm in the shower, I get out tons of times because I think something terrible has happened to him (my cat). These fears are not logical. Then again, neither is the stuff we think about that causes this panic. The medication I'm on has really helped. I still go through some of it but not near as bad. I'm actually able to leave the house within 30 to 60 minutes now and it's still getting better.
Daytona, thanks for asking about me. I appreciate your support and the support of all the ladies.
I'm still having some problems with the panic and the depression but it is getting better. I noticed a big difference when the doctor increased the celexa from 20 mg to 40 mg a day. We may still have to introduce another but we'll see.
Also, I'm still having trouble with concentrating. I was told that this is normal and part of the depression. It should clear up also
I talked to my medical doctor also and he and the pyschiatrist (?) have agreed that I may return to work next month. I asked him because I've been off since the middle of January for medical problems when the depression, panic and o.c.d. came to a head. I heard from an old boss of mine that she has a position in an office that I would be good at. She wanted to know if I'd be interested. I said yes. She would need me to be back to work by the first of August. When I saw my doctor I told him about this. He was thinking a little later than this but I convinced him that I was ready. It has really given me something to work towards.
I even went and had my hair done

That is something I haven't done since December. Let me tell you....my family was having a fit over all the grey hair

Truthfully looking decent has been the last thing from my mind.

Sorry this is soooo long. I just wanted to let you all know that there is definate hope out there. The darkness does fade and light will come in
I can't thank you enough for all the encouragement and support. God blessed me big time when I found this group. You are great!!!
Jan