When I was a kid, I was in leg braces due to extremely short achilles tendons, I have scoliosis with two twists, I tore 4-5 of the muscles in my back when I was about 21, my knees are missing cartilige, my neck lacks spinal curvature.. In short, I'm a mess. But I really want to do something productive with my life, and I really want to lose more weight, and I had this idea that I could start working out... So, I've been going for progressively longer and longer walks, and on Saturday I spent 25 minutes on the elliptical, and I wasn't even winded but I thought I should take it easy the first day....
And on Sunday morning, I started having muscle spasms in my back. It's like, what the heck am I supposed to be able to do with my life if I can't even spend 25 minutes on an elliptical without having to see a doctor?
I'm in constant pain all day, every day. But when the pain spikes like this, it's overwhelming. I just want to cry.


