I have been diabetic for about 8 years. The first few I didnt know, then I was on glipizide, and thenmoved to managing my diabetes thru diet - very succesfully. I lost 54 lbs, and was really doing great. Enter stress, life falling apart, etc and you get where i am now - I have been basically ignorning my diabetes for nearly a year. I know the risks of that and just simply havent cared.
I joined this site today, for support as i get my life and health back on track, and get back to honesty - I am obese, I am diabetic, and I do have to take control again - now.....
Heather, the folks here are really nice and very supportive. Stressed is such a bad place to be. But just know that today you can turn that around and have taken the first great step... Surrounding yourself with positive and supportive friends!
So throw doubt out the window and fill up your tank with faith...in yourself.
You can do it!
You can get back on track! You've done it before, and you can do it again! Stress and diabetes don't mix well at all, but it is never too late to get healthy again. Life happens, part of putting together the pieces is dusting yourself off. I don't know your situation, but my diabetes has been to **** and back, but once I got back into control it has been easier to stay here. You can do it!
My advice: Don't focus on the risks. Focus on how you feel any given day, how your choices will make you feel in a few hours. When you don't take care of yourself, you feel crappy. That's how I get through.
I am glad you are focusing on your health and determined to get your diabetes under control again. Just think how much better you will feel! I always feel so good about myself when I test my bg and see my choices are good. It is so motivating to have that concrete evidence of it too! There are a number of us who are dieting and diabetic, and we post a lot in the thread, Dieting with Diabetes. I know the support means a lot to me...I hope we can give you all the support you need to achieve your goals!
Heather,
This is my first post. I felt for you when I read your entry. I think you need to talk to your Dr. about depression. If you can get that under control, then you can be motivated for the rest. That feeling of listlessness and not caring could be depression. I have diabetes and am 40lbs overweight and am on Prozac. I have more energy/motivation because of it.
Misa
Thank you for the replies and the support. As far as the depression, I agree, but I guess its been hard to focus on me, you know? My dh suffers from 2 major things - vascullitis and paranoia personality disorder, and these are new things in the last 6 months, so every moment is centered around his mental and physical health.
I'm Linda and, as the saying goes . . . Been there; Done that . . . I was diagnosed a good 15 years ago and, at the beginning did fairly well controlling things with just Glyburide and better eating habits, but then I seemed to fall off the deep end for a period of a few years . . . ignored my disease and did all the wrong things. Five years ago, I finally got back to testing my BS at least and discovered I was in terrible shape and had to add a lot of new drugs and regular Insulin injections just to get back on track and my already overweight situation turned into major obesity. Anyway, to shorten the story, I've finally got myself on a better path and have been losing weight and controlling my sugar levels much better since the beginning of this year. I still have a long way to go, but the weight is slowly coming down and the need for so much medication is slowly dropping, too. It can be done, but it does take work.
Hope you will become a regular and post on our monthly "Dieting with Diabetes" thread. We will all be looking forward to seeing a lot less of you a lot more often.
Keep on moving and shaking, girl. With a little help from our friends, we can all move on down that road to better health.
Ignoring diabetes
You can do it!
I am glad you are focusing on your health and determined to get your diabetes under control again. Just think how much better you will feel! I always feel so good about myself when I test my bg and see my choices are good. It is so motivating to have that concrete evidence of it too! 
