Hi guys, I was reading this forum for a while but had to register today, because I feel I need support and can not deal with that stuff on my own any more. My family just can not listen to me anymore or they don't know what else they can do to help.
I have Type 1 since 1,5 years ago, debuted at 33 and after that my life got so messed up with food, diets and feeling deprived. I have good control, my numbers are great but I've developed ED, where I literally can binge eat my brain off on low carb meals. I need to stop this, because it's getting out of control... I can not go on like this my whole life... Feel so ashamed that I can not get it together, I hate every second of this stupid disease. And yes, therapy didn't help

I gained a lot of weight since DX, and itt is hard on me because I was thin my entire life and now everything falls apart. I haven't weight this much even when i was pregnant.
There is only food, thinking of food, planning stupid food, calculating carbs, calculating proteins that will turn into carbs .... I can't win this game I feel.