I'm still hanging in there....I finally got me an app. to see my dr. on the 12th I'm still feeling a lot of stress and anixety...I hope he can help, cause i'm not sure what i need....I think all the stress is causeing most of my pain..I was dx. with spastic colon a couple years ago, but didn't ask many questions at the time (just thought it was something i had to live with) And i just found out that, a spastic colon is IBS. Mine is with constipation...I've been haveing a lot of cramping everyday..sometimes doubleing me over with the pain....on top of the Fibroids, TMJ, and my esophageal spasms seems to be more everday.They have been wakeing me up at night...They are very painful...
I am about at my witts end from all this pain...
I have'nt been eating on plan lately (low-carb) so my weight had been going up and down...I been loseing and gaining the same the 5 pounds for a month now...Since i cramp with everything i eat, i have been just grabing whatever to make the hunger go away....And since the nesson fundo surgery i have to eat smaller meals and every 2 or 3 hours...I was haveing dumping syndrome, but lately i think it has calmed down at least,... so far anyway...
I fear the dr. will think i just want drugs...He don't know this but before i had my last surgery (nesson fundo) on march 7th. I drank beer all the time...I started out being a weekend drinker sometimes more, then to everyday for the last 10 years....It was like my stress reliever...But since the surgery i've had only 5 or 6 to try and calm my nerves....Basically now i've just quit...I guess thats where all the anixety is comeing from...Do you think the dr. will help me? or just tell me no,.. he can't help...I somehow got the money from my husband to go (were usually broke)..I'm afraid cause if he don't help...Then there go's my only chance...I'm not sure when i will get the money to go again...And if he wants to do more tests first, then i am stuck again...I already owe the hos. money that i can't pay right now...I'm so stressed..I don't know..I feel so lost and helpless right now...
I still don't know about matt (my sons) brain surgery to remove the AVM...The surgeon still has not called to let us know of a date. The last we heard the dr. that does the embolisation (sp?) was going out of town...So they said maybe they could get it set up for the 19th or 26th this month....The closer it gets the worse i feel. My son still stays quiet on the subject...Other than that hes doing great...But i"m sure he worries about it...He stays busy doing something all the time...
I hope everyone is doing well...Thanks for the ear...I needed to let it out a little...
Candy
