Remember me? Sigh...I've been away...and despite reporting back a few weeks ago, I never fully returned.
I had a severe ankle injury. Accidental, but self-induced.
I dug my jagged wooden fence into the back of my ankle and it ripped out a huge chunk of flesh.
I have this tendency to hurt myself physically to get at those around me.
I was over the edge with the way things were falling apart family-wise:
My dad became unwell and thus abusive again,
My mom's legs are in constant pain and she's a waitress,
My grandpa's had several encounters in acute care in the hospital. I don't know if he's going to be ok.
Then there's the ex-factor, where I thought I'd love to be friends with him again but his very re-entrance into my life reminds me of my inadequacies.
So now I feel more unwanted than ever.
And of course...as the major result of this, I started drinking and binge eating.
Gained back 7 lbs.
I just felt like I had no place to turn...my meds don't seem to work anymore. And I don't want any other kind but Wellbutrin because the others make me gain weight.
Then I realized the only place I really ever got support was here.
SO now I'm going to be accountable and check in with how I'm doing, exercise and diet related.
I hope all of you are doing well, and those who are having a tough time...
we can always get back on track.
S'all for now...going to go work out.
