Hi,
I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Jamie. I'm a SAHM to 4 kids. I've just turned 30, been married for 10 years. I've battled depression on and off for 12 years (mostly off). Last March, my doc put me on Effexor (didn't work) and then Wellbutrin which worked. Then I found out in May I was pregnant, so I took myself off the meds. Fast forward to January. I had my baby and my dh insisted on me going back on meds. So my ob/gyn put me on Cymbalta. I was on it for 2 weeks and I hated the side effects so I stopped taking them and went to my family doc who put me back on Wellbutrin. Well . . . I managed to take that for 1 week and then again I talked myself out of taking them. I'm seriously PARANOID about gaining weight. I'm convinced that I won't be able to lose 35 lbs that I have to lose to get back to pre-baby weight. I've never been on an anti-depressant before needing to lose weight. It's always been when I'm at my target weight and then I don't gain weight either, just stay stable.
So . . . anyway, it's been a week and I'm on nothing. I've not told anybody (doc or dh) that I'm not taking them. I'm just so scared that I won't be able to lose my baby fat. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to diet for the next 4 months or so, lose the weight THEN go back on the meds. But then I think about it, and I'm not sure I'm thinking logically. I mean I don't know for sure that I even need to be on meds, but I think I probably do.
Oh and for what it's worth, I'm currently breastfeeding and my baby is 5 weeks old. I'm also finding myself to be eating OUT OF CONTROL! I'm an emotional eater and I just can't help myself lately. UGHHH!
HELP!!!


