Right now I want to kill jazz (puppy) or give her away. She destroyed one shoe of my brand new Birkenstocks that I got to replace the sandal she destroyed. Well maybe they are 2 weeks old. I was so sure I put them away. It’s doubly annoying as I have to keep her inside when I sleep in the morning so she won’t run away. I would have tied her up but it was raining. And so I slumbered while she chewed. Have to sort my sleep out too. earlier to bed and less lounging around. But still pissed off with her. Between her running away, chewing things, jumping on me and fighting on the lead I am out of patience. If I go for a walk today I will take only saffie. I am likely to thump jazz today
something I have to work on daily – creating a quieter spirit within me. That summons up the whole anxiety / depression issue - right now i feel really squally inside. a big storm is brewing
Headachy tired and not focusing. I did some dishes next as that is something that hopefully didn't need much brain power lol. i have been up less than 2 hours and already i want to go back to bed but i will have to fight it!!! Dr Phil is on soon so maybe i will watch that. it is on OCD so might be something i can learn there
Something has to change this isn’t working well for me, I just don’t know how to break the cycle. Maybe a good night’s sleep might see me right? i am getting off the efexor so now that i have less in my system i will take a klonopin tonight before bed. hope it helps
